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I am a violinist. I also enjoy running, working out, reading, and hanging with my friends and cat.

Tuesday Thoughts

I almost titled this Monday Musings, but then I remembered it was Tuesday! I didn’t have my school class yesterday because of Presidents Day so it sort of felt like a Monday today.

We attended the Doos Trio concert last night at Washington University and it was fantastic! Here is the description from the website: Three masters and old friends join together in a new collaboration. Kayhan Kalhor, Wu Man, and Sandeep Das are established soloists in their individual traditions. Their new trio highlights the ancient traditions of Iran, China and India in a 21st century program. Three-time GRAMMY nominee Kayhan Kalhor is an internationally acclaimed virtuoso on the kamancheh, who through his many musical collaborations has been instrumental in popularizing Persian music in the West. Recognized as the world’s premier pipa virtuoso and leading ambassador of Chinese music, Wu Man has carved out a career as a soloist, educator, and composer giving her lute-like instrument a new role in both traditional and contemporary music. A Guggenheim Fellow and GRAMMY-winning musician, Sandeep Das is one of the leading tabla virtuosos in the world today. Since his debut concert at the age of 17 with legendary sitar player Ravi Shankar, Das has built a prolific international reputation spanning over three decades.

Things that I loved: how much FUN the musicians were having playing together (AND it sounded great), and how interesting it was to watch Kayhan Kalhor play the kamancheh, which seems like a precursor to the violin. I just really loved the concert, and wanted to get up on stage and improvise with them. It seemed they had some things that were set (endings for sure) and other things that were improvised, and that is exactly the sort of thing I was teaching in Creative Ability Development before scheduling got the best of us. I think so much of jazz improvisation has more rules than I want to deal with and I prefer improvising in a more free way and just having fun with it. This doesn’t mean that an auditorium of people will enjoy listening to me improvise, but the fun of it is the same. So much of music should be more focused on how fun it is to PLAY and not so worried about the audience and what the audience thinks. We tell kids not to worry about what other people think, and then we tell them they have to perform in certain ways so the audience likes it, and that certainly seems like a mixed message!

I made bread in my bread machine on Sunday. I rarely do this, and yet the bread is always so delicious. In this case, the bread was also really tall: I made a “large” loaf, forgetting that usually I prefer the “medium” size as it is not quite so tall.

Muriel was being adorable in my chair here. I took a series of photos as she kept changing position.

She was trying to set a trap with her belly, but I don’t think petting her was a wise move at the time.

After Friday’s snowstorm, the weather yesterday and today seems quite lovely. Most of the snow is gone, though not all, and I took my coat off this morning while running errands. February is always a crazy month with the weather.

Louie has come around and decided he does like the look of the fake plants in the sunroom. I find this is often the case with him: he is hesitant to trust my ideas with decorated, but then once I set it up (after convincing him to just let me try things out) he tends to come around. This gives me the thought that I have a good eye for decorating, which may not be true, but I do know what I like to look at. I’m considering some other decorating changes and trying to decide whether to just pull the trigger or wait longer and keep looking around (likely).

How’s your week going? Do you have snow on the ground where you live?

Surprise Snow Day

Yesterday we had a bit of a surprise snow day–the weather people had predicted an inch or so, and nobody believed them anyway because it had been so warm. Snow started falling around 10:30 am, and by the afternoon it looked like this.

I think we had 3-4 inches! There were definitely some times the roads got bad, but luckily I was just up at Wash U which is just a few minutes drive (it’s walkable, but I often drive when I’m teaching to save time and also because carrying all my teaching stuff makes the walk awkward.) I enjoyed getting a taste of snow driving on my way home! I was supposed to play in a small concert that evening and it got canceled, so Louie and I went to a nearby restaurant for dinner and then watched Caddyshack (he had never seen it! so we had to watch) and started watching the show Bodies. We have also been watching Fisk this week, which is hilarious.

I did a little decorating in my “sunroom” this past week: it is a waiting area for students primarily, and I recently acquired a second comfy chair for it, so we finally set up a little corner conversation area and I added some artificial trees. Louie suggested that artificial trees weren’t an improvement over no trees, but I am not sure I agree. What do you think about fake plants? We may try our hand at a real plant or two as well, but it’s one more thing to do, you know?

The room still needs some new paint, but that’s on the list. And I will get a different plant pot for the plant, the box is temporary.

Muriel loves the fake plants and knocked one of them over last night…

And Miles is mostly just content to lie in his hammock on sunny days.

Other than the snow, this week has been busy but uneventful. I know it’s bad to be busy, but it seems unavoidable. I also didn’t feel at all well one day (sort of two, some odd stomach issues) but I’m feeling better now. We had a low key Valentine’s Day and had a takeout meal from the Whittemore House. I got my students signed up for the Music Club Spring Festival, which is always a THING and I’m glad to have that done and now they just have to finish learning their assigned pieces. I’m playing a concert tomorrow night with the Metropolitan Orchestra of St Louis (NOT to be confused with the Metropolitan Orchestra as it was at a recent performance), and today we have rehearsal. I taught many students, missed a few, have some today (sadly) and then tonight we are going to the symphony to see a variety of pieces including Carmina Burana. I did get Friday morning off from my school job (this coming Monday as well) so I am slightly more rested than usual.

Anyway, I’d better get going to my rehearsal and not fritter my whole morning away drinking coffee and typing, so I’m off. It’s sunny but cold today so the snow will likely stick around for the most part.

Sunny days

I’m nearly to my first weekend post Funny Girl and it’s going to be great! We are having some friends over for dinner on Saturday night–doing our go to of fish tacos, since we haven’t made them yet for these particular friends, so it should be low stress and fun. Sunday we have a short quartet concert in the afternoon and then I know Sunday night for many is the Super Bowl, but we aren’t big football fans here, so it’ll probably be dinner and watching something on Netflix. We started Griselda the other day so maybe that if we haven’t finished it yet.

It’s been a good week overall. I had an orchestra rehearsal last night for a group I play with: we are doing Tchaikovsky Romeo and Juliet and Mendelssohn’s Midsummer Night’s Dream along with some other stuff, and it was fun to play in a big group. My real love is orchestral playing, and I rarely get to do it, so it’s always nice.

The weather this week has been mild and lovely, and either we are going to seriously regret this in the summer, or it’s a nice respite, and I guess I’m saying nice weather in early February makes me a little nervous, but I’m still trying to appreciate it. If it hangs around for Saturday we’ll get out for a hike or trek in the park or something at least.

I haven’t been taking any interesting photos, sorry, so assume my cats are doing cute things. Miles has become more friendly and has started coming out to say hello to some of the students, which is a truly astounding thing: he has been so shy and his typical MO is to hide, so coming out to say hello is really exciting for everybody!

We had a meeting of the neighborhood movie club this week. Due to my schedule being tight, we attended on Zoom, which wasn’t as fun but it was less stressful and we enjoyed discussing Godzilla Minus One (perhaps a strange movie for a movie club, you might think, but it was really good with many layers and things to discuss.) It’s fun to have a little group, even though we are the youngest in the group…we won’t always be the youngest, so it’s probably fine to still be in that number.

How are you doing? Does nice weather make you nervous for the future? Any big plans for Valentine’s Day?

Groundhog Month

Well, we made it through January, the longest month ever.

It was a whirlwind of activity. I don’t know quite how I made it through, and honestly, if I can make it through this week and to next weekend, life should get much easier. I know people always say that, but it really is true for me, things really will be a little easier. (HAHAHA!)

I’m well into week two of playing Funny Girl. It’s 8 shows a week on top of my regular teaching, and the hardest part is getting enough sleep, which I haven’t been doing. Yesterday was really helpful though, as both of my college students canceled on me so I ended up having about 5 hours off during the day, during which I caught up on emails and other paperwork and even had time for a nap and practicing. Thursday (that’s today) is my normal morning off so I slept in a bit and now I’m doing more emails and stuff. The admin load lately has been heavy, but mostly because of doing makeups for all the gigs and getting ready for the Music Club Federation Festival which requires sign ups by Valentine’s Day.

Sigh! So much work!

My set up in the pit.

My goals for January: I met some and I didn’t meet others. We did go to the neighborhood Film Club meeting and watched the film already for next month’s. I baked bread, and had lunch with some friends one day. We had wanted to do a hike but the weather was just so cold we decided not to. I have not been as active as I would like, but I have been eating better than in the past, so that’s good. I’ve been doing a lot of stretching and making sure to stand up often. I did some needlepoint one time but haven’t done any since then. Oh, and I have been tracking my books: I read over 20.

I did stay up on my flossing and DuoLingo. In fact, we are planning a trip this summer to Sweden and Finland now, so I decided to sideline my Norwegian learning and start learning some Swedish first, which is similar but different. I have no ideas of being fluent, but I would love to be able to read some things and have a better sense of the world around me while we are there. And yes, I really want this trip to happen, though it seems far away (August) and lots can happen between now and then.

I also did some longer range planning for the year besides what I just mentioned: we blocked off a vacation in May as well and made plans to meet up with my parents halfway between our homes over Spring Break. Louie and I both work hard, many hours, and while it’s tempting in the music world to never take vacations (actually somewhat frowned upon by some!) the beauty of being a teacher/self employed is the ability to take breaks. And if you don’t block them off, those dates will get filled in (I actually messed up a little over Spring Break and should have reserved more time than I did, but lesson learned for the future: plan ahead more).

February goals: more social activities (we may be able to have a small dinner party), two lunches with friends, at least one hike with Louie somewhere local, maybe even two to make up for it, bake for Sally’s Baking Challenge (even though this month looks tough..), exercise more than this month, and keep staying on top of things (I have managed…for the most part). I would also love to make some marmalade, and I’ve made plans for these things in the calendar this month. I realize I am mostly focusing on the fun goals and not any of the house goals, but I also think that is okay: it’s a short month, and though life will be slightly less busy, who am I kidding. But inside projects are a good idea either way, as February weather can be unpredictable (with the idea of getting a hike in, as the weather currently is terrific for hiking, so maybe it’ll stay that way.)

I also want to continue working on my positive attitude and focusing on having an abundance rather than a scarcity mindset. I’m not sure if I mentioned that before, but I keep reminding myself: I truly have everything that I need, and if I keep reminding myself of that, it helps keep feelings of envy and FOMO at bay–if I focus on the positive and what I have, rather than what I don’t have, it is SO much better!

So there you have it. A new month, new me (just kidding, always the same me) and of course, cats..

January is the worst

There was a blurb in the NY Times newsletter about how talking about how terrible January is can help us deal with it. I will say, yes, it’s terrible, it’s cold, it’s really cold, it’s dark, the holiday season is behind us and it’s horribly busy!

It wasn’t always this way. Well, it was always cold. But the busy! It’s been a very musically satisfying January, with all my concerts (including reading some late Beethoven and then performing it right away, what a thrill!). And our radiators are working great keeping the house warm enough (just a few drafty windows.) I was smart last year and finally bought a really warm and long coat so that’s been wonderful. And the car I usually drive places has seat heaters. There are many things to be thankful for!

I had my first colonoscopy on Tuesday: it went just fine. The prep wasn’t fun, but it wasn’t awful either, and then I spent Tuesday just lying around relaxing. Much like Miles in the above picture, except I don’t like to lie ON radiators but instead on soft things covered by blankets. I also took advantage of being home all day to make a loaf of whole wheat bread.

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I made this loaf as part of Sally’s Baking Addiction Baking Challenge. My Mom bakes (or at least, used to bake, do you still bake bread, Mom?) whole wheat bread six loaves at a time and this was a big part of our childhood. I never really got into it at home, so it was fun to make my own loaf. She has this giant bread mixer machine thing–it’s not actually a machine but is hand cranked. Similar to this I think (or maybe that’s what it is). In any case this bread has been great for hearty sandwiches, which I had to pack for my dinner the past two nights anyway.

Today is a more relaxing day: the week was busy, but really it was just three days since I had my prep and procedure the first two days. But it packed in a lot, and I am tired! I have some lessons to teach and laundry to do, but otherwise we plan to go out to dinner and who knows. I had wanted to go for a hike today, but the weather is currently in the single digits, so I think I won’t get a January hike in.

How is your January going? Are you staying warm? (or do I have readers on the other side of the world, where perhaps it is hot?)

On being busy

Everybody says that they are busy, and everybody says that we shouldn’t talk about how busy we are because being busy is bad.

Of course, everybody doesn’t say both of those things, but as a freelance musician and teacher, the way the conversation goes is this:

“How are you?”

“Busy!”

“That’s good!”

I’ve had this conversation (is it a conversation if it’s just three sentences?) with many people over the years. And while it doesn’t allow for much nuance, the idea is: busy equals working, which as a musician is good.

One thing I have been struggling with is how MUCH I need to work. On the one hand, I enjoy what I do: I like playing concerts, I like teaching students (not every day, but I do enjoy working with them overall), I like seeing my colleagues at various rehearsals and working together, and I love music. So when I see a free space on my calendar and somebody asks about something, or when somebody asks about something that sounds super fun, I will make it work. At the expense of, I suppose, everything else.

Many of the podcasts and books for women are how to balance work and life, with work being work and life being family/children. What if you are trying to balance work and life, with life being friends and your partner and whatever ELSE it is that you want to do other than work, because you don’t have children? This is something that people used to talk about, when I was in my 20’s and early 30’s, but I feel like nobody talks about it anymore. It’s assumed, in our culture, that all women in their 40’s have children to balance around, and it is also assumed that any who don’t have children have this freedom to their lives to do whatever they like, whenever they like. And I do know some people who do tend towards the latter, but I’m sure there are other people out there like me?

So, what does a 40-something do when they have to work very long hours to make their career work the way they want it to, but they also want to have a good relationship with their partner, their family and friends? It’s hard to fit it all in, even without children! (And yes, I know how people with children do it: as the lower earner in my household I would be the one cutting out work.)

January and February are traditionally my less busy months, but as I’ve mentioned here, that isn’t the case for this year. It’s a variety of things, but mainly because I took on four different chamber music concerts, two candlelight concerts (a new addition) and a two week run of a show at the Fox theatre, doubling on violin and viola…doing all that with teaching is a bit busy. If you are asking, how do I make it work, the answer is, extreme calendar organization, panic, and years of experience. The good news is, two of the concerts are today which will lighten the load a little bit. And then I have three days off (well, one day off, one day doing colonoscopy prep, and one day having and recovering from the procedure.) I should get some good reading in!