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midwest weather

Weather here is crazy. Warm, cold, ice, snow, warm, cold, etc. We had all the seasons from Wednesday to Friday of last week, according to one of my college students. I argued that we didn’t see summer (if we had there wouldn’t still be ice around). In any case, the weather keeps us on our toes, doesn’t it? Today is supposed to be warm by afternoon, but then snow is in the forecast again for later in the week.

We’ve had some fun activities this weekend–dinner at Louie’s mom’s on Friday night (a takeout beer dinner from the Whittemore House) and then we went to Jazz at the Bistro last night with our friends Ben and Roz. We had pizza with them beforehand, and then hung out again afterwards since the second Jazz show was sold out and we couldn’t stay. The show was great: Christian McBride on bass, Benny Green on piano, and Gregory Hutchinson on drums. I would have watched it again if it wasn’t sold out (if there are tickets available for the second show you can trade in for new seats, no additional charge.) Tonight we are going to see a play at the Rep called Stick Fly: they sent a code for discount tickets which were a really good deal and I didn’t want to pass it up. It’s nice getting out and about again.

I have tomorrow morning off from my school job due to President’s Day, but this week we have a big concert on Wednesday. The school is going “masks recommended” starting Tuesday rather than “masks required” so it’s a little stressful. No, there is no vaccine mandate for any employees or students or anyone. They do have protocols in place to put masks back in if the number of COVID cases gets above a certain percentage at any one school, but seeing as we teach students from 5 different schools at a 6th school, it doesn’t really make that much sense to me. The COVID cases are only known because of self-reporting, as well, so I suspect they are underreported. Oh well! We are told there are resources to help with our anxiety and that N95/KN95 masks protect the wearer…

You might ask, how do I feel comfortable going to shows and such but not being at work with unmasked people. The shows ask for vaccine proof or a negative test, and people are required to wear masks. The jazz shows do serve food and drink, but I can choose to keep my mask on, and they require masks and testing, which means that people have had to make extra effort to be there and aren’t likely to show up fully symptomatic, as they might be for school. Also, if I’m going to catch COVID, as I’ve said, I want it to be from something fun. We should be safe at our jobs, at our schools, etc.

I canned some pickled beets with beets from the CSA. I had to get a new canner to go with our induction stove, and the awesome thing is that it’s a steam canner, so it uses way less water.

The steam canner at work.

I’m doing a practice contest with my students starting on March 1. I’ve been working out the details all week, and I got it sent out (well, scheduled to send for tomorrow). I am hopeful it will encourage more practicing and be fun. In a nutshell, the students track their practicing until the end of the semester, and the top three practicers win automatic prizes. In addition, each student gets a “raffle ticket” for each 15 minutes they practice, and then I’ll do a drawing and pick three more winners. I don’t have the prizes yet but am planning on $10 gift certificates to a variety of places, some ice cream places, maybe target, that sort of thing. I think it will be really interesting to see how it goes and to see how much some students practice. It’s a good incentive as we head into contest/recital season. I’ve got several students doing Solo and Ensemble, and 12 students doing the NFMC Festival, and then probably a bunch playing on the recital at the end of April.

I’ve also been trying to get ahead on my summer planning, and setting up stuff for the summer/fall. This month doesn’t seem as busy as March/April look to be so I wanted to use my time to make plans for the future. I’m working out how I want the summer to look and how to streamline my teaching schedule so I’m teaching less time when I’m teaching less students. I think it’ll be the best summer yet as far as those things go.

How is your February going? Did you witness the ridiculous women’s figure skating final night of crying?

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Happy VDay

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It’s been a busy weekend!

I mean, not by pre-pandemic standards. But by my new “weekends” free standards: I had a gig last night AND this afternoon.

I played with a small group at a retirement community (The Gatesworth) last night. After that Louis heated up our Valentine’s Day Dinner: it was a meal from the faculty club at Wash U, the Whittemore House. We joined the club sometime in the past year, and they’ve been doing various takeout events, where you pick up food and drinks (sometimes) and then go home and you can heat it up to eat later. The previous owner of Stellina is the chef at the Whittemore house, so the food is tasty. We had agnolotti, short ribs and root veggies, and then chocolate cake for dessert.

I had a wedding this afternoon, which was perfectly nice. I feel tired…I’ve been pretty tired this whole spring semester so far, and I suppose it’s from getting up early, working too hard, all of that. I am not quite sure what to do about it, other than trying to get to bed early. I think I am more burnt out than anything…I’m not sure if I should resign from my early morning job at the end of the school year because it’s been so exhausting doing that and teaching, or if the exhaustion is unrelated and it’s simply…exhaustion from the pandemic, the worries, the stress, all of that. I find myself unable to simply live and forget what is going out around us.

I’ve been enjoying watching the figure skating, of course, though I’m pretty upset about the fact that one of the Russian skaters was caught doping and yet is continuing to be allowed to compete, and in fact, why was competing in the first place when she had failed the drug test over a month ago? I get so angry how there are people who just keep breaking the rules and other people who never get to break even one rule without getting extremely severe consequences (thinking of the track and field athlete in the summer who got disqualified for smoking weed).

I feel like my life is just one week after another, counting down the days until? I think the winter weather is getting to me, and spending too many weekends at home without social interaction. Too much of my social life was tied up with working on the weekends, I guess. But I’m also not super comfortable with groups of people, and I’m not convinced the pandemic is quite over yet, and I still don’t want to get COVID, so I don’t know quite what to do.

This is just me with a bit of the Sunday blues, I suppose. I guess I’ll fold some laundry and read for a bit more, or something. There’s no shortage of books to read, that’s for sure!

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January is a cold month

I leave my house for my morning job around 6:35 am/6:40 am and I tell you what, 7 degrees sure is cold at that hour. That’s what I was dealing with yesterday. I came home after that, and towards mid afternoon I was feeling really cold so I turned up the heat at my house and also got into bed for a bit to try to warm up. Those were great ideas, and then I felt good enough to finish my teaching week.

I taught my morning improvisation class this morning (it’s online, though maybe someday it won’t be) and now we are planning to head out for a hike soon, after it gets just a bit warmer outside. I don’t have anything scheduled until Monday, which is fantastic.

It was a good week. Short because of MLK day, which helped, even though only two hours of work was canceled, isn’t that crazy? But I had a nice time with the students all week: holidays are fun, but it’s also nice to be in the groove of, see you next week, and the week after, and so on, and knowing that you can keep teaching them regularly and they’ll make progress (hopefully) if they are practicing.

I got asked to play a few pieces on a New Music Festival in March, and I decided to agree. It gives me a new challenge and an incentive to practice more regularly. I have already gotten into the groove now of practicing 15 to 20 minutes a day, which is way more than I’ve been doing. I have a few other things I need to learn as well, so I might end up practicing more as the next few months progress. It’s nice to have a few things on the calendar to work towards, though it’s also nice not to have too many, as teaching is pretty much all-encompassing.

I think I’ve got my college teaching schedule set and it worked out pretty well. The semester is looking good and promising. We are still up in the air on our summer plans due to factors, but I have a few things simmering, and at least one of them will work out. Next summer Louie will be done with his doctorate so we are thinking about planning a 3 to 4 week road trip then. The only thing to consider is the cats: that’s a long time for them to be on their own…we’ve done two weeks and that was long for them. But we’ll figure it out.

I still have to take down my Christmas Tree. That will get done this weekend. Or else it has to stay up all year then.

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Known Unknowns and Unknown Knowns

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One thing that COVID has really given us/taken from us (depending on your mindset) is that you can’t make real plans, be that travel, concerts, social plans, meal plans, etc. We had plans to see the St Louis Symphony last weekend but they canceled it due to COVID. I go to the grocery story and have a meal plan, but sometimes I have to switch it up. (Though that hasn’t happened much lately, unless I’m looking for bucatini pasta, which is rare.) Social plans are up in the air, and you feel like it’s a lose-lose–after so long it feels so necessary to see friends, yet seeing friends is a risk…I personally still don’t want to get COVID but at this point at least 25 percent of my students have had it (this is a quick estimate, not official) and therefore I feel like it’s inevitable, even though I continue to take reasonable precautions. I am not special, and I do my own grocery shopping, and we have continued to do a few in person things, because, and let me be honest, I am tired of having work be the biggest risk in my life, and if I get COVID I want it to be because somebody else did my dishes that night or because I visited with a friend.

COVID besides, I had a lovely weekend. It snowed Friday night into Saturday morning and so Saturday was a “stay in” day and I spent it reading the latest Outlander Novel. I’ve been rereading the earlier Outlander books in the series since mid December or so, and I finally finished the new book yesterday midday. Sunday was a cold day but sunny so we went for a nice walk around Forest Park. There were muddy places, but nothing too bad. Sunday night we had dinner with Louie’s parents, who we hadn’t seen since before Christmas. I’m teaching as normal this week, and have another free weekend coming up…

We went by the skating rink and got to see the Zamboni at work!

College classes start virtually: I’m writing this currently as Louie is teaching a class from home, and I’m starting my students next week. We are back in person then after that, so that will be nice. I am working on setting up my schedule, and I think I’ve got it for now…it’s always a struggle and every semester is different. I love teaching the college students, but scheduling is my least favorite part of the job.

As far as my mask dilemma a few posts back, I decided to order some KN94 masks in black to wear, but I’m still waiting for them to arrive. So we will see how those work out, when they get here.

The World’s Fair Pavilion with some snow. It wasn’t as much as they predicted but was pretty.

That’s it for now! How is your January ticking by?

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Christmas Time Is Here

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It’s been a busy month, but in a good way!

I’ve realized that when I don’t hang out with musicians as much I don’t experience the whole FOMO about gigs and stuff. Musicians are always, oh are you playing the such and such on Sunday and then you feel like if you aren’t that you should be, and that can turn into a vicious cycle. I’ve played so many gigs here and there and everywhere, and they all run together…spending a Saturday morning rehearsing with yet another church choir can be perfectly fine, but it’s not what I spent my childhood practicing for!

In any case, I’ve been busy doing all manner of holiday things plus the usual teaching up a storm.

Last weekend we finished celebrating Hanukkah. We found it tough to fit in lighting the candles each night after work, but it forced us to give that time, to stop working, to relax, and to sit together with the lights. I teach from early until late, and Louie works all day as well, hoping to finish his doctorate by the end of next summer, and weekdays are long as a result.

We attended a Jazz at the Bistro show with Keyon Harrold. It was packed, which is both fun and a little scary, as always. (They require vaccination OR a negative covid test, but that doesn’t guarantee anything, does it?)

Work wise, we did “open house” all last week at my before school job, which meant that each day some parents were there and the kids performed solos for them. This is no small feat, and very exciting and stressful for the students, to perform a short piece from memory in front of a group of people! Though I have some things to work on in my group teaching, I was overall pleased with how my students did.

Other happenings this week: we went to see A Christmas Carol at the Rep on Thursday night. I really enjoyed the production! I don’t think I’ve ever seen the play live, and it was a lot of fun. I only took one photo there, but it was very interesting, because I didn’t realize that so many of our traditions come from Victorian England. Or, that is, I probably did know but forgot, as I am prone to do.

It was fun to see a few actors I knew from my Runaway Cupcake days as well.

Saturday morning I attended a party that a student’s mom invited me to. I went with my friend who is their piano teacher, and we stayed for a bit. It was mostly outside and was a hot chocolate/cookie decorating party. I took home a small box of cookies to decorate and enjoyed chatting and eating spinach mushroom quiche baked in bread.

We had friends over Saturday night for eggnog tasting. I’ve made 4 batches of eggnog over the past year–if you add enough alcohol it will keep in the fridge indefinitely. It wasn’t a super scientific process, but the overall favorite was this recipe, which I made in January. I used Jim Beam Bourbon, Grand Marnier, and Xo VSOP Brandy instead of cognac. The second favorite overall was this recipe, made in October, though I don’t know which rum I used, I think whatever I had on hand. The other two batches were the same recipe from Serious Eats, from July and November, and while everybody liked them as well, they just weren’t the favorites. I suspect the Grand Marnier recipes had a bit more oomph, and the longer aged one with spices was just more complex and delicious. We have more eggnog left so we may do the testing again on a few more people, but the basic gist was that aged eggnog is tasty!

You can see everybody had the four samples of eggnog to taste. We labeled the cups 1 through 4.

We also ate goodies: cheese ball, nuts, latke cookies, and so much more. I have been lax on my picture taking lately and I didn’t get a photo of a whole tray of cookies I put together (sad face) but you are probably tired of cookie photos anyway. We took a break from snacking to attend the Garden Glow at the Botanical Gardens, which was very well done. It was a nice night for it: cold but not so cold that wearing a coat and hat didn’t keep you warm enough.

We waited in line for a while to go into the house, so we watched the light and music show about 3 or 4 times through! The lights project onto this house. This was during the Nutcracker music.
We waited in line a few times for pictures and made strangers try to take our pictures. Louie got nervous after one woman fumbled and almost dropped his phone so I insisted they use mine as it is super protected.

Coming up this week is the last full week of teaching, woo hoo! No specific holiday festivities planned this week, but I have a concert this weekend my quartet is playing on (with the St Louis Chamber Chorus).

Today is a day off. I’m enjoying a slow start, a relaxing day, and planning another batch of cookies before starting to package them up for gifts. (I wrote gifting first and then said, what, no, no, I’m not doing that.)

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An Almost normal weekend

What a weekend! First off, I didn’t have to work at all. (With the exception of a bit of emailing and a few tiny things, probably less than one hour’s worth of work.) Second of all, we went to TWO performances.

Friday night Louie and I went to the 560 Center at Wash U to see our friends Mark and Jae-Won play a lovely program of two piano music, all written by women. The 560 Center requires masks and either proof of vaccination or a very recent negative test. I really lovely the program, particularly Seis cantos de los campos (2013) by Gabriela Lena Frank and Kilter by Mary Ellen Childs.

After the concert a group of us went to Blood and Sand to celebrate. It was weird being in a restaurant in a group (we were all vaccinated, but who knows about the rest of the people…not too busy though.) I recall Blood and Sand being a “hot” place to go a few years ago…I suppose the pandemic has hit them hard because I was underwhelmed, and the prices were pretty high for St Louis. It felt more like a typical Washington Ave/Downtown St Louis restaurant, more flash than substance. It was a good time nonetheless.

Saturday was a relaxing day, and at night we went to Jazz at the Bistro to see Harold Lopez-Nussa play Cuban Music. Louie and I went a little early to eat dinner there, and it was as good as ever (that is, totally fine, not great, but not bad). My salmon dish was really well cooked, so I was very pleased with that. (Often salmon is overcooked and dry, and this was just right.)

We loved the program, and stayed for the second set as well. It was awesome to be back at the Bistro (who were also checking vaccination/negative tests).

Sunday I really slept in, it was almost 9 by the time I woke up! We took a walk in the afternoon, and it was HOT. I had a family zoom call and then a book club zoom call, and then it was time for dinner and bed.

Food wise: we made mushroom quesadillas one meal, tuna melts another meal, and pumpkin waffles (frozen from Trader Joe’s) and scrambled eggs one meal. Just to give you some ideas.

Now it’s Monday, and I already taught an early morning class. I have a love/hate relationship with my early morning job. I hate getting up so early. But I actually really love teaching the kids once I get going: it’s busy, stressful, and I feel like I’m really accomplishing things with them! But everytime my alarm goes off…ugh I really hate it and tell myself, that’s it, I’m quitting after this year. We’ll see how things go!

My online book club is with some old friends from when I lived in Cleveland. It’s weird talking with them: I feel like that time of my life was both so long ago and also not long at all. I also have been through a lot of life changes since then, and haven’t kept up very well with my friends from there, but it was nice to hear them talk about gigs I used to play there, etc. Sometimes I feel weird telling people that what I mostly do is teach, because I sometimes feel like I’m wasting my hard-earned playing skills not playing more, yet, teaching is fun, something I’m good at, and pays better (in my current life/city) so I’m happy with it, and I spend hours a day playing!

I guess it’s more like I’m looking at what my life might have been there if I hadn’t made the fateful decision to move here. I also sometime wonder, would I have moved here if I’d known that ultimately I would be basically giving up my performing career? I’m not regretting my decisions, because I enjoy my life and I particularly love being with Louie and love our life together, but I miss playing big orchestra concerts and I do miss some of my friendships from there.

And I do actually really enjoy teaching, which isn’t something I would have said 10 years ago. The pandemic pushed me to teach more, and over the years I enjoy it more and more. 10 years ago I taught some classes at various schools and really didn’t like it, but I’m really enjoying my classes now. I love teaching my college students at Wash U, and I have many private students that I absolutely adore. So perhaps it isn’t exactly where I thought I’d end up, but it’s something I’m currently loving. And my studio is running quite smoothly right now, and I’m happy about that as well. So that’s life for you, you don’t always end up where you expect, but maybe that’s okay.

Enough of my navel gazing. How are you on this fine morning? It’s quite windy, and we had some bad storms last night–we were lucky in the city but some people in the TV viewing radius were less lucky with tornadoes and storm damage 🙁 I stayed up later than I should have watching local news to make sure we weren’t at risk (I didn’t want to go to bed if there might be a tornado warning) and then morning came quickly because of my relaxing weekend. The rest of the week is busy enough, plus it’ll be Louie’s birthday!