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Known Unknowns and Unknown Knowns

One thing that COVID has really given us/taken from us (depending on your mindset) is that you can’t make real plans, be that travel, concerts, social plans, meal plans, etc. We had plans to see the St Louis Symphony last weekend but they canceled it due to COVID. I go to the grocery story and have a meal plan, but sometimes I have to switch it up. (Though that hasn’t happened much lately, unless I’m looking for bucatini pasta, which is rare.) Social plans are up in the air, and you feel like it’s a lose-lose–after so long it feels so necessary to see friends, yet seeing friends is a risk…I personally still don’t want to get COVID but at this point at least 25 percent of my students have had it (this is a quick estimate, not official) and therefore I feel like it’s inevitable, even though I continue to take reasonable precautions. I am not special, and I do my own grocery shopping, and we have continued to do a few in person things, because, and let me be honest, I am tired of having work be the biggest risk in my life, and if I get COVID I want it to be because somebody else did my dishes that night or because I visited with a friend.

COVID besides, I had a lovely weekend. It snowed Friday night into Saturday morning and so Saturday was a “stay in” day and I spent it reading the latest Outlander Novel. I’ve been rereading the earlier Outlander books in the series since mid December or so, and I finally finished the new book yesterday midday. Sunday was a cold day but sunny so we went for a nice walk around Forest Park. There were muddy places, but nothing too bad. Sunday night we had dinner with Louie’s parents, who we hadn’t seen since before Christmas. I’m teaching as normal this week, and have another free weekend coming up…

We went by the skating rink and got to see the Zamboni at work!

College classes start virtually: I’m writing this currently as Louie is teaching a class from home, and I’m starting my students next week. We are back in person then after that, so that will be nice. I am working on setting up my schedule, and I think I’ve got it for now…it’s always a struggle and every semester is different. I love teaching the college students, but scheduling is my least favorite part of the job.

As far as my mask dilemma a few posts back, I decided to order some KN94 masks in black to wear, but I’m still waiting for them to arrive. So we will see how those work out, when they get here.

The World’s Fair Pavilion with some snow. It wasn’t as much as they predicted but was pretty.

That’s it for now! How is your January ticking by?

Christmas Time Is Here

It’s been a busy month, but in a good way!

I’ve realized that when I don’t hang out with musicians as much I don’t experience the whole FOMO about gigs and stuff. Musicians are always, oh are you playing the such and such on Sunday and then you feel like if you aren’t that you should be, and that can turn into a vicious cycle. I’ve played so many gigs here and there and everywhere, and they all run together…spending a Saturday morning rehearsing with yet another church choir can be perfectly fine, but it’s not what I spent my childhood practicing for!

In any case, I’ve been busy doing all manner of holiday things plus the usual teaching up a storm.

Last weekend we finished celebrating Hanukkah. We found it tough to fit in lighting the candles each night after work, but it forced us to give that time, to stop working, to relax, and to sit together with the lights. I teach from early until late, and Louie works all day as well, hoping to finish his doctorate by the end of next summer, and weekdays are long as a result.

We attended a Jazz at the Bistro show with Keyon Harrold. It was packed, which is both fun and a little scary, as always. (They require vaccination OR a negative covid test, but that doesn’t guarantee anything, does it?)

Work wise, we did “open house” all last week at my before school job, which meant that each day some parents were there and the kids performed solos for them. This is no small feat, and very exciting and stressful for the students, to perform a short piece from memory in front of a group of people! Though I have some things to work on in my group teaching, I was overall pleased with how my students did.

Other happenings this week: we went to see A Christmas Carol at the Rep on Thursday night. I really enjoyed the production! I don’t think I’ve ever seen the play live, and it was a lot of fun. I only took one photo there, but it was very interesting, because I didn’t realize that so many of our traditions come from Victorian England. Or, that is, I probably did know but forgot, as I am prone to do.

It was fun to see a few actors I knew from my Runaway Cupcake days as well.

Saturday morning I attended a party that a student’s mom invited me to. I went with my friend who is their piano teacher, and we stayed for a bit. It was mostly outside and was a hot chocolate/cookie decorating party. I took home a small box of cookies to decorate and enjoyed chatting and eating spinach mushroom quiche baked in bread.

We had friends over Saturday night for eggnog tasting. I’ve made 4 batches of eggnog over the past year–if you add enough alcohol it will keep in the fridge indefinitely. It wasn’t a super scientific process, but the overall favorite was this recipe, which I made in January. I used Jim Beam Bourbon, Grand Marnier, and Xo VSOP Brandy instead of cognac. The second favorite overall was this recipe, made in October, though I don’t know which rum I used, I think whatever I had on hand. The other two batches were the same recipe from Serious Eats, from July and November, and while everybody liked them as well, they just weren’t the favorites. I suspect the Grand Marnier recipes had a bit more oomph, and the longer aged one with spices was just more complex and delicious. We have more eggnog left so we may do the testing again on a few more people, but the basic gist was that aged eggnog is tasty!

You can see everybody had the four samples of eggnog to taste. We labeled the cups 1 through 4.

We also ate goodies: cheese ball, nuts, latke cookies, and so much more. I have been lax on my picture taking lately and I didn’t get a photo of a whole tray of cookies I put together (sad face) but you are probably tired of cookie photos anyway. We took a break from snacking to attend the Garden Glow at the Botanical Gardens, which was very well done. It was a nice night for it: cold but not so cold that wearing a coat and hat didn’t keep you warm enough.

We waited in line for a while to go into the house, so we watched the light and music show about 3 or 4 times through! The lights project onto this house. This was during the Nutcracker music.
We waited in line a few times for pictures and made strangers try to take our pictures. Louie got nervous after one woman fumbled and almost dropped his phone so I insisted they use mine as it is super protected.

Coming up this week is the last full week of teaching, woo hoo! No specific holiday festivities planned this week, but I have a concert this weekend my quartet is playing on (with the St Louis Chamber Chorus).

Today is a day off. I’m enjoying a slow start, a relaxing day, and planning another batch of cookies before starting to package them up for gifts. (I wrote gifting first and then said, what, no, no, I’m not doing that.)

An Almost normal weekend

What a weekend! First off, I didn’t have to work at all. (With the exception of a bit of emailing and a few tiny things, probably less than one hour’s worth of work.) Second of all, we went to TWO performances.

Friday night Louie and I went to the 560 Center at Wash U to see our friends Mark and Jae-Won play a lovely program of two piano music, all written by women. The 560 Center requires masks and either proof of vaccination or a very recent negative test. I really lovely the program, particularly Seis cantos de los campos (2013) by Gabriela Lena Frank and Kilter by Mary Ellen Childs.

After the concert a group of us went to Blood and Sand to celebrate. It was weird being in a restaurant in a group (we were all vaccinated, but who knows about the rest of the people…not too busy though.) I recall Blood and Sand being a “hot” place to go a few years ago…I suppose the pandemic has hit them hard because I was underwhelmed, and the prices were pretty high for St Louis. It felt more like a typical Washington Ave/Downtown St Louis restaurant, more flash than substance. It was a good time nonetheless.

Saturday was a relaxing day, and at night we went to Jazz at the Bistro to see Harold Lopez-Nussa play Cuban Music. Louie and I went a little early to eat dinner there, and it was as good as ever (that is, totally fine, not great, but not bad). My salmon dish was really well cooked, so I was very pleased with that. (Often salmon is overcooked and dry, and this was just right.)

We loved the program, and stayed for the second set as well. It was awesome to be back at the Bistro (who were also checking vaccination/negative tests).

Sunday I really slept in, it was almost 9 by the time I woke up! We took a walk in the afternoon, and it was HOT. I had a family zoom call and then a book club zoom call, and then it was time for dinner and bed.

Food wise: we made mushroom quesadillas one meal, tuna melts another meal, and pumpkin waffles (frozen from Trader Joe’s) and scrambled eggs one meal. Just to give you some ideas.

Now it’s Monday, and I already taught an early morning class. I have a love/hate relationship with my early morning job. I hate getting up so early. But I actually really love teaching the kids once I get going: it’s busy, stressful, and I feel like I’m really accomplishing things with them! But everytime my alarm goes off…ugh I really hate it and tell myself, that’s it, I’m quitting after this year. We’ll see how things go!

My online book club is with some old friends from when I lived in Cleveland. It’s weird talking with them: I feel like that time of my life was both so long ago and also not long at all. I also have been through a lot of life changes since then, and haven’t kept up very well with my friends from there, but it was nice to hear them talk about gigs I used to play there, etc. Sometimes I feel weird telling people that what I mostly do is teach, because I sometimes feel like I’m wasting my hard-earned playing skills not playing more, yet, teaching is fun, something I’m good at, and pays better (in my current life/city) so I’m happy with it, and I spend hours a day playing!

I guess it’s more like I’m looking at what my life might have been there if I hadn’t made the fateful decision to move here. I also sometime wonder, would I have moved here if I’d known that ultimately I would be basically giving up my performing career? I’m not regretting my decisions, because I enjoy my life and I particularly love being with Louie and love our life together, but I miss playing big orchestra concerts and I do miss some of my friendships from there.

And I do actually really enjoy teaching, which isn’t something I would have said 10 years ago. The pandemic pushed me to teach more, and over the years I enjoy it more and more. 10 years ago I taught some classes at various schools and really didn’t like it, but I’m really enjoying my classes now. I love teaching my college students at Wash U, and I have many private students that I absolutely adore. So perhaps it isn’t exactly where I thought I’d end up, but it’s something I’m currently loving. And my studio is running quite smoothly right now, and I’m happy about that as well. So that’s life for you, you don’t always end up where you expect, but maybe that’s okay.

Enough of my navel gazing. How are you on this fine morning? It’s quite windy, and we had some bad storms last night–we were lucky in the city but some people in the TV viewing radius were less lucky with tornadoes and storm damage 🙁 I stayed up later than I should have watching local news to make sure we weren’t at risk (I didn’t want to go to bed if there might be a tornado warning) and then morning came quickly because of my relaxing weekend. The rest of the week is busy enough, plus it’ll be Louie’s birthday!

Feeling Uninspired

I thought, hmm, haven’t blogged in awhile, but I feel uninspired to do so. I’ve been doing a fair amount of writing outside of the blog (some music reviews, a class assignment) and perhaps that is covering my wanting to write urges. Also, I’m tired, have had some headaches, and we’ve had Louie’s dad visiting the past few days.

I thought I should stop by and say hello in case you thought I’d forgotten about this space. October has been a bit more difficult than I’d thought, but it’s going okay, just busier and more emotional. My class job has been wringing me out, with two kids crying yesterday and me feeling like letting them feel like that was against what I wanted for my class and feeling like I failed them. I continually remind myself that class teaching is not something I’ve been doing a long time and I am learning along the way much more than in one on one teaching, and that I need to let myself be bad at it sometimes, but the thing is: if I’m bad at it then I’m failing the kids. I also know they were probably just tired and they wanted to move on and they weren’t ready quite yet, and I hope I consoled them well.

My weekends have been busier than I wished for, but I’ve been feeling useful which is worth something, and we did get out for a nice hike at Castlewood State Park on a nice day in between rainy days. I love Castlewood, but it gets so busy on the weekends, so it’s better to go during the week if possible.

This weekend has a few activities, including the Arch Cup for my students. Usually I attend, but this year I am unable to, so I’m excited to hear how they do without me hand holding them through it. I’m trying to push them to be more independent and I think they can handle it. The Arch Cup is in person OR online, so some students submitted videos already and others will be playing live, which is scary for them and I’m excited.

I got my COVID booster shot, Pfizer. I debated for a little while whether I should wait for various reasons, but ultimately decided that since I interact up close with a lot of younger, unvaccinated students it was for the best. I can’t teach violin without touching students and getting up close, and even though they wear masks, their mask usage is imperfect because they are children.

I just bought tickets for the Great Artists Series at Washington University this spring. I am thrilled for all the live concert events we have on the schedule. You know I mean classical and jazz shows, as that’s my style, but I’m thrilled for you if you are attending any live music events as well. I am always excited to show my vaccination card to any venue that wants to see it as I believe vaccination is our path back to “normal” and that we need to continue to work towards that goal. There was a time in my life where I played more concerts than I attended, but I absolutely love going to concerts with Louie now. I attend far more concerts than I play, and I learn from them and I enjoy them. I missed live music during the pandemic, and even though technically we are still in the pandemic, live music is back due to vaccines and it’s great!

Oh and we got a new stove! It’s an induction stovetop with an oven that can do convection and air fry. I haven’t baked anything yet but plan to do pumpkin bread and maybe fruitcake this weekend. I’m planning to do my own fruitcake this year just because and it needs to age 6 to 8 weeks before eating. And I have a few new pumpkin bread recipes to try: I have a tried and true one that I love but I’ve made it so many times over the years that I’ve been branching out to try new kinds. I’ll keep you posted.

What are you up to? Have you been apple picking or pumpkin patching? I have not, but it seems that many of my friends have been and it looks like it would be fun if it weren’t 90 degrees.

Fall is the best time of year

I love the change of seasons. I love when the cool weather comes, when the cold weather comes, when the flowers start peeking out again and it gets warmer, and when school is out. Every season has its good points.

Oh, and Happy Birthday to April!

April and I right before the pandemic!

It’s been busy, of course. As much as I talk the whole “ooh I want my weekends free” talk, I also enjoy making music and having more money! So I’ve taken some gigs of course, and then this weekend I ended up helping out a contractor by playing a last minute wedding as well, plus we attended another symphony concert. (We ended up going three weekends in a row due to wanting to see various concerts, but we don’t have anymore this month.)

We know the sound is better from the balcony, but you get more camaraderie and leg room on the main floor. It’s weird being with so many people, but they check vaccine cards at the door (or negative tests) and masks are worn pretty well.

I played on a real concert, real actual music with live performers and a masked/vaccinated audience. It was wonderful, and I had forgotten how performing feels so it was great to be back to that.

A picture of the rehearsal for said “real music” before I joined the stage.
A delicious weeknight meal: trout amandine, roasted carrots, and polenta. This was mostly courtesy of Trader Joe’s: polenta is a frozen meal, carrots from there, and frozen trout as well. Louie did the honors and it was delicious.

And now I’m into my week again, so much teaching, so many students, lots to do! I’m getting used to the schedule and making things work. I do a lot of planning: I use google calendar (which I sync with My Music Staff for private teaching) and have a few different calendars to plan personal things, time to work on various projects, catch up on business paperwork and things, exercising, appointments, etc. I enjoy seeing the various colors of my day (I also use different colors to keep track of which students are in person and which are online) and it helps me stay organized and make sure that things I need to get done each week get done. In addition to google calendar, I keep a few running to do lists on my phone (I just use the reminders app on my iphone) and anytime I have anything to do, I try to add it to the list (I will do this in the middle of a lesson, for instance) and then I check those lists often.

My running lists are: general to do list, which is pretty much anything I can do at home, Grocery list, food planning, gardening list (this one is being ignored as I just can’t do it all), and a curriculum to do list where I’ve been gradually solidifying my personal teaching philosophy and curriculum to really know exactly what it is I’m teaching my students and how to get them from beginning to advanced through all the steps they need. (That’s one of the projects I list above). I find the general to do list super useful for me because I don’t have strict boundaries between personal and business responsibilities, so when I have time at home, I will just work on that list, regardless. (The question of whether I should have strict boundaries is a different thought for a different day.)

A good portion of my day is spent petting various cats and such as well.

I also keep various documents for studio billing, financial planning and bill paying, travel planning, meal planning, etc, and work through those as needed. I use an app for keeping track of my expenses and mileage for tax purposes (Self-Employed through Intuit) which is a little more expensive than I prefer but I also find the app incredibly useful and I don’t use an accountant, so it probably works out in my benefit.

Anyway, this may be a boring blog post, I know, but I was just thinking about how I get things done. I’m not a paper planner person, though I do keep handwritten checking registers because I’m old fashioned in that way–I track my deposits, withdrawals, all payments for my checking accounts through my handwritten registers, but pretty much everything else is online. I’d been using handwritten teaching attendance books as well, but since I switched to My Music Staff this fall I may phase that out for next year as it’s redundant at this point. Some redundancy is good for record keeping, but too much is time consuming for no point.

Planning wise, I’m looking forward to doing some travel over the holidays (Thanksgiving and Christmas) and I’m planning to make homemade fruitcake this year, as well as a variety of cookies as usual. I will likely not go quite as over the top as last year, but there are still some things I really enjoy making as well as always trying a few new recipes. It’s October, which means it’s not too early to plan holiday baking, as well as the fact that making fruitcake is something you evidently do early so the fruitcake can “age.”

I just laugh so hard at this.

Anybody have any great ways they plan or get things done? For those who are self employed/work from home: how do you delineate time spent on work and time spent on personal things, or do you do like I do and blur the boundaries?

Concerts

We are going to a concert tonight! It’s Kishi Bashi with the Symphony and we are excited. The Symphony is requiring either proof of vaccination or a negative test, so I feel like this is going to be okay. I believe they are at lower capacity and have spaced people apart, though we’ll see when we get there…

My fall schedule is shaping up really well. I managed to group my college students onto two different days, and I have most of my mornings free after my early classes which is great for doing work. I don’t have any days that are full from dawn to night, which is something I haven’t managed in the past. I miss seeing my students at Lindenwood, but something had to give, and that was my farthest drive. My early morning job is doing well so far, one week down, many more weeks to go, but I’m enjoying seeing and working with colleagues.

Our friend Jim is working on the back of our house, redoing an old wooden deck that needed serious replacement. I’m thrilled to be able to use the back door again safely when he is done. I’ll share pictures as well, then.

It’s been busy though, getting the year started, staying up on emails, billing, scheduling, etc. I have been trying to really limit my business work to during the week, though of course that’s impossible (well, it’s impossible for me, because if a student contacts me over the weekend and I can respond quickly, I usually do…why add it to a list of things to do later if I can do it right away?).

Anyway, just thought I’d pop in and do a quick check in. I’ve got some more things to do on the computer before setting off to teach college students again. Changing my system this fall will (I hope) save time and admin work in the long run, but until then it’s added a lot of work just getting it all set up. Every time I get something figured out, it seems like something new pops up.

Hopefully the weather turns out nice on Sunday as I’ve got the day off and would love to go for a hike somewhere. Right now the forecast looks good but it keeps changing.