Category Archives: Random thoughts

Coffee

Chris and I are big coffee drinkers.  We’ve had (or I’ve had, can’t even recall when I got it) a lovely red coffeemaker for years, definitely since Cleveland.  In fact, I ordered a red Kitchenaid Mixer because of my red coffeemaker, even though they ended up being slightly different shades.  And then I got a red blender and a red food processor. 

As a small child, I loved coffee ice cream.  I remember the day I learned about mocha chip ice cream.  What, coffee ice cream WITH chocolate chips?  Sign me up!

Anyway, we didn’t register for a coffeemaker for our wedding because we already had a perfectly good one.  UNTIL.

Yesterday afternoon I wanted a cup of coffee before I started teaching.  I put together the water and coffee, turned on the machine, and left the room.  I returned a bit later and attempted to fill up my cup…and I realized that the coffeemaker, though technically ON had MADE NO COFFEE.  It hadn’t heated up. 

So I tried again.  Unplugged and plugged.  Turned off and on.  Waited longer.  Nothing.

TRAGEDY.

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Luckily we have a variety of other ways to make coffee.  Stovetop espresso maker.  Instant "Via" blends.  And what we remembered this morning was:  a french press! French press coffee is quite good.  (Honestly it’s better than drip coffee, but it’s those extra steps that bug me—I want the best coffee I can make easier and conveniently.  I don’t really relish the idea of heating water separately every morning.)

Obviously we are in the market for a new coffeemaker.  I think red might be nice.  Any recommendations?  We have some Crate and Barrel gift cards to use, but of course we also love Target and shopping online, so anything would be good.  What do you use for a coffee maker?  Are you as addicted to coffee as I am? 

Post-Wedding Depression

I have been in a bit of a funk all week long.  The past few months (year really) have been SO exciting, so many wonderful trips and events to attend, and now it seems like the most fun stuff is behind us.  I know, how rough my life is, I’m letdown after my wedding, honeymoon, Leslie’s wedding, a trip to Paris, all that.  Boo freaking hoo, there are people starving and dying and I’m complaining that my life is a bit dull now? And honestly it’s not even remotely dull, but I guess I’m just tired or something.  Plus my good bow has a crack in the frog and my spare bow is in rough shape because the hair is approximately three years old and so I feel like I’m not prepared for any of my concerts in November.  Plus I haven’t been happy about certain career things for months (I’m not going into it here, sorry, but it just teaches me not to get too excited about things and not to take stuff for granted.)

Yesterday was particularly tough (understandable with any day that starts with a memorial service for a friend).  We played at the service, and then I had teaching—now, this is where yesterday got really awesome—a bright light in the middle of a grumpy day (week…hopefully not month). 

This is my new favorite student.  He walked into the lesson wearing that horse head.  I absolutely LOST it and almost started crying.  His mother suggested I take a picture, and I figured it might as well be him playing the violin.  After we got this all set up (harder than it looks)—he asked, in a small voice, if he could take the head off as "it’s hot in here and hard to breathe."  Poor guy.

So I’m not going to wallow.  I got to sleep in today which was fantastic.  I was feeling a little sad that I don’t have a good reason to dress up for Halloween this year, but honestly that’s just not that important to me right now.  Or heck, I could just dress up to teach on Wednesday if I wanted.  We’re finally making progress on getting my bow fixed and I’m sure I’ll get that back soon and it’ll be better than ever.  A friend has been wonderful with lending me a bow (and another bow too, I believe) and I’m delighted to know that even though we violinists act like we hate each other, it boils down to that I have some of the world’s greatest friends who would do just about anything for me but I have to ask.  That’s a good thing.

A friend asked me recently if my students liked me.  I was like, um, yeah, they LOVE me.  I think most of them do.  Is that what’s most important in a violin teacher?  Well, they need to love me and respect me too—I think most of my students recognize that I know how to play the violin and how to teach them to play, but we have a darned good time doing it.

Oh, and I have a new weight loss goal.  I know I’ve said these things before but I mean it this time.  I’m signing on with my trainer for another six months.  By the end I plan to lose 20 pounds.  It sounds like a lot but it’s not if I break it down.  I’m already working towards that goal.  I know 20 pounds is just a number, but it’s a nice round number, and I’m over ten pounds up from where I was a year ago and I’m really not happy about that.  So I’m committing myself to weight loss, and though I know that losing weight doesn’t bring happiness, it certainly doesn’t hurt!  BRING IT ON WORLD.

How are you today? 

Everything’s better with a party hat

I just spent about 15 minutes looking for a picture that evidently I don’t have.  It’s of Horatio from CSI: Miami on the TV screen with my friend Sarah’s blue hat sitting on top of the TV.  It’s the sort of thing that isn’t really funny but gets funnier each time a character’s head lines up with the hat.  Funnier and funnier.

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At least I think it’s funny.  Maybe you had to be there? 

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You may be saying, Hannah, surely you have something better to blog about.  I’m going to be honest.  I don’t. But seriously,  I really thought you’d get a kick out of these photos.

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We got a new (well, only) dining room table recently.  The cat seems to like the new chairs.

(What I really need is a picture of the cat wearing a party hat—I think a certain friend could do that pretty easily using MS Paint?)

Yeah, I’ll tell you more about Leslie’s wedding later.  I’ve been too tired all week to write anything other than this random drivel.

Tomorrow is the Memorial Service for our friend Jim who passed away the other week and I’m playing a few quartet pieces, including Barber’s Adagio.  I’m a little stressed about it.  I always get emotional during services like this (I guess most people do) and I’m a little concerned about my ability to continue playing, at least well.  I’ve been dreading this all week.  I guess if I were looking forward to it that would be a problem, right?  I know I’ll be fine, I’m a professional (Trust me, I’m a professional!) and I’ve done far more challenging things.  Besides, the memorial service isn’t about me, or how I play.  (Must remind self of that.)

Who is watching the World Series?  We are.  I am halfheartedly rooting against the Giants, but it’s tough to want Detroit to win. 

A few thoughts on siblings

Hanging out with so many old friends and family makes me think about myself.  Oh wait, I already do that all the time.  What I really mean is, it makes me more introspective.  I think about where I come from, especially how my personality has been shaped by my family, particularly my brother and sisters, and how their personalities have been shaped by me. 

I have three siblings.  Many people are surprised by this.  I have an older brother, Jesse, who is a college professor and two younger sisters.  Leslie is the one who just got married, and then Carrie is quite a bit younger and is still in college.  Most of my childhood and into adolescence I was a middle child, and then when Carrie was born I still continued that role but also took on the more important role of second oldest, and oldest girl.  I know my sisters look up to me for examples whether they like to admit it (or whether I do either) or not, and that my opinion is probably more important to them than it should be.  Though I am the oldest girl in the family, I don’t actually know everything.

When you live far away from your siblings, it’s easy to forget the role they play in your life.  But pretty much all of my interactions with people today have a basis with how I learned to interact with my siblings (and parents) growing up.  I shared a room with Leslie for many years growing up, and then we lived together in Cleveland for several years as well, so we are closer than the others.  Jesse used to live fairly near me in Ohio so for a year or so we saw each other more often, but now we tend to run into each other at family weddings and funerals only.  I know he reads this blog though, and my Mom likes to keep us all up to date on each other.  Carrie is your typical 20 year old and doesn’t have much time or desire to chat with annoying "old people" so she just sighs and rolls her eyes a lot.  (I’m half kidding).

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Luckily we got a picture of the four of us at Leslie’s wedding (well, this is the rehearsal dinner.)  Who knows when we’ll all be together again?  Carrie, Leslie, me, and Jesse, in order from left to right, youngest to oldest, and oddly, shortest to tallest as well.  How many families have the kids in exact height order like that?  (Leslie is wearing flats and slouching a bit, otherwise she’d be more obviously taller than Carrie). 

I know I could write tons more on sibling interaction, but I won’t.  I should read more on it I think—does anybody have any good book recommendations about siblings and birth order and the impact on people’s lives?  Do you have siblings?  Are you close?

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I’ve been tired all week.  I wonder why 😉

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I promise I won’t use that picture again.  Well, I plomise.

We are heading (back) to Phoenix tomorrow afternoon.  I’m doing something revolutionary (for me) and not packing until tomorrow.  I have a packing list, and I think it will just be easier and faster to wait.  I do have some piles of "stuff to bring" like my shoes, purse, "emergency bridesmaid kit" and stuff like that.  I am so excited!  I can’t believe my sister is getting married!! (Is this how she felt in January?) 

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(A knife for Hannah.  This is a family joke, involving a time when Carrie got angry at me and drew a tiny picture of a knife, labeled it "A knife for Hannah" and left it on my desk.  I think she was about five or younger at the time.)

I feel like I’ve just been on high alert/high excitement since last week.  Even being here, in between, I feel like I’m still in celebration mode and nothing else matters. 

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(The girls)

I did have a good workout yesterday.  I didn’t think it was at the time because Mike kept fussing at me about my lunges needing to be lower and how I should be more focused (how can I be focused this week??) and how my hip shouldn’t be hurting anymore and that a week is plenty long to recover from a half and I should either go to the doctor or just run through the pain.  (Yes, okay, I didn’t go to the doctor for what may have been a slight rotator cuff tear and was something integral to my career, I’m totally going to the doctor for approximately two weeks of hip pain that is improving!).  Anyway, my attitude was crabby afterwards but I woke up super sore this morning—my quads and shoulders and ribs are sore and I feel like I must have done a good workout after all.

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Honestly, I’ve been in such a crabby mood other than my excitement for Leslie.  There’s a memorial service for our friend Jim after we get back, I’m angry at the political bs going on, I’m angry at baseball…(don’t get me started because I will go on forever and there is no appeasing me).  GAH.  So much annoyance at the world.

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Let’s get these crazy kids married then!  I am ready to spend the next few days away from the annoyances of day to day life and away from St Louis and ignoring as much political talk as possible, and ready to spend it with friends and family.

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We’re doing hashtag #pesliewedding for the weekend.  Unless we come up with something better.  (Unlikely, yet also nearly impossible to come up with something worse.)

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I get to see all these lovely ladies again! (What, are you surprised I posted a picture from my wedding?)

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Oh, and I’ll have to give a toast.  I’m a little terrified of this:  as much as I love attention, I don’t like everybody looking at me.

When Leslie came out of the dressing room wearing her wedding dress the other day, it occurred to me that some people might get teary and emotional.  I hadn’t seen her dress before.  The seamstress asked if I had seen a picture and I said no.  But I expected her to look beautiful in her dress and of course she did.  So it wasn’t a surprise.

And that’s as much sentiment you’re getting out of me tonight :) 

(Oh, and writing this blog post and looking through pictures has put me in an excellent mood and I’ve almost forgotten all about what was making me angry—baseball—earlier tonight.  Yay for old pictures!)