Looking for improvement

“If you look at a thing, the very fact of your looking changes it…if you think about yourself, that very fact changes you.”
— Robert Penn Warren

Today’s quote on the Happiness Project website.

I would definitely agree in many ways.  And I know there are many ways to apply this thought to self-analysis and self-improvement…but today is not a self-improvement day.

Today I thought of my students.

I often ask them to check their bow hold, to look at their bow, to check their wrist, to look in the mirror.  I will ask them how their “low 2’s” were, or if they played the correct dynamics, or if they got the correct bowings.  I try to get them to look at their playing, to observe it, and to critique it.

Often a student will check their bow hold, and as they glance down, I notice them curving their pinky and bending their thumb.  They will say to me, “it was good!” when in reality they simply fixed it immediately.  

And really NOTHING fixes a straight bow like watching it.   If you look at your bow, it will automatically improve, and not slide over the fingerboard as much.

(I know there is some technical jargon in today’s blog post.  Remember this:  to play the violin well there are some important techniques of how to hold the bow and the violin that must be followed, and much of a beginning teacher’s job is to instill proper techniques to greatly increase a student’s chance of success.  What some say is “talent” I say is “hard work and great teaching.”)

St. Louis Television Debut

This morning started VERY early.  My alarm went off at the ungodly hour of 5:00 AM.  Then I had to get dressed and do full makeup and full hair drying…to drive 30 minutes to..

BE ON TV!!

So I’m not really complaining.  Besides I had time afterwards to take a nap.

We played in a little hallway outside of the main studio, and played for the “bumps”—when they go from show to commercial or vice-versa.  Dana (the clarinetist from Chamber Project) gave an interview and talked about the performance tomorrow at the Siteman Center as well as some general Chamber Project information.  In the video we are playing the Beethoven Serenade, last movement.

http://www.fox2now.com/videobeta/f1f0f584-d777-49cc-a21f-5b715c5fe213/News/Chamber-Project-St-Louis-Performs

 

I also took a few pictures while we were there.

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Note the time—

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Jen, Adrianne, and Dana

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Laura, and Me

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Being sneaky and peering into the studio

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Quick update: HBBC and TV!

This is the last day of the “Holiday Bootie Buster Challenge.”  Now, yes, I find the name totally embarrassing, but it was a great challenge to keep track of all my workouts and to eat more fruits and vegetables.  My total is 239.8.  I think that’s pretty good!  Thanks to Amanda for putting on a great challenge!  AND I didn’t really gain weight over the holidays…maybe some temporary weight but as of two days ago, totally back to pre-Thanksgiving weight. 

Reminder:  Tomorrow morning I will be on television with Chamber Project St. Louis.  We are on the Fox2 morning show at 7 am (Central time).  I’ll be the one playing the violin.  I am also performing with them on a Sunday afternoon concert at the Siteman Cancer Center. 

Today’s lunch:  Sweet Art on 39th Street.  I met my friend Melissa and we both had lentil soup and sandwiches with artichokes and sundried tomatoes.  The wait was long, but worth it!  The cupcakes were very good, though I hear 2011 is the year for pie.  Nobody told the Sweet Art people that. 

Reading List

I have a ridiculously wonderful reading list right now. Thanks to my Kindle, I’ve got TONS of free classics on there.  I have started to read “War and Peace” first…am I crazy?  Since my resolution was to read one classic a month, I thought I’d start big, plus Gretchen Rubin (of “The Happiness Project”) recommended it.  It’s pretty overwhelming.  However, the kindle tells me exactly how far I am.  I’m 18 % done already!  (I am a fast reader).  I think some of the war stuff is going over my head though, and I wish I had a bit more historical reference.  (Any suggestions to help?)

What else is on the list?  Well, the Ed Kreitman books I’ve mentioned before about teaching violin.  Next is the book for the book club  Mrs. Q on “fed up with school lunch” is starting—“Free For All :Fixing School Lunch in America”.  I’ve also added two books from a recent Gretchen Rubin post to the list:   “The Truth About Grief…” by Ruth Davis Konigsberg and “The Year of Magical Thinking” by Joan Didion.  After that (unless it’s February already) I’ll probably read some light fiction—I love mysteries and got a few free kindle books.  I also got “The Hunger Games” for $5. 

If it’s February I’ll be onto my next classic and my next career related book (to be determined). 

I really love to read–if you hadn’t picked up on that.  I will read anything and everything, and I read quickly.  I have always loved to read, and I imagine will always love it.  The Kindle is great because it fits in my purse and I can have several books (many, many) with me at all times.  I don’t have to worry about finishing a book and not having something else to start on.

Random thoughts:  I recall we were supposed to underline book titles.  I presume it’s okay not to do that now, as I hardly ever see that online.  Perhaps it’s still required for formal papers.  I hear that you aren’t supposed to double space after periods anymore.  Did you know I learned to type on an actual typewriter? 

Do you love to have a reading list or a stack of books waiting to be read or does it stress you out?  I’d love to hear from my readers.

Job interview

Today’s “dailypost” is to share a story about a memorable job interview.  I am not really a job interview type of person.  As a musician, I am more accustomed to either getting the job by word of mouth, or by auditioning.

There’s nothing worse than auditions.  To get an orchestral job, unless you are very well-connected (i.e. related or married…) or lucky, you have to “win” an audition.  For most full time jobs, people come from miles around, and possibly nearby planets, to audition. 

The way it works (please skip to the following paragraph if you are already familiar) is that the job is posted and a “list” is given out of the excerpts to learn.  These are excerpts (parts) of orchestra pieces that you must learn and perform on your own in front of the committee, generally behind a screen for anonymity.  Usually you are asked to play a Major Concerto (for violinists, think Brahms, Tchiakovsky, or Sibelius—and look them up if you don’t know them, awesome pieces), a movement of a Bach Sonata or Partita, possibly a movement of a Mozart Concerto, and perhaps 10 to 20 excerpts.  The excerpts are somewhat standard throughout the industry, and for any given audition you would likely only be preparing one or two new pieces, the rest you would be relearning for the audition.  The entire list could take anywhere from 20 minutes to 2 or 3 hours to perform.  You would spend many hours every day preparing the list, for perhaps two or more months.  You would record yourself, you would play for friends and colleagues, you would memorize it, you would make sure every note is perfectly in time and perfectly in tune, with a beautiful sound, nice phrasing, no obvious shifts, and you would hope that they love the style you play in.  Then you would buy your plane ticket to the audition, perhaps a hotel room, meals, taxis, etc.  You would get to the audition and you would play, behind a screen, perhaps for three to five minutes, and the committee of 8 to 10 people would decide whether or not you were good enough to advance to the next round.  Out of 30 to 50 people in a day of auditions, probably 4 to 10 are advanced to the next round.  And from that, one is chosen…maybe.  If you miss a few notes, or if the committee doesn’t like your style, or perhaps the sound of your violin (perhaps you don’t play on a multi-million dollar instrument like someone else might) you are out.  Out of luck, out of time, out perhaps a thousand dollars. 

Once you have that orchestra job though, then you can look down on the other musicians who don’t have one.  You can act surprised that they play an instrument, or make comments like “oh, you wouldn’t know what good playing sounds like because you only teach beginners.”  You can ignore them at restaurants, or talk about how “hard” your life is, or how money is tight with three kids in private school…the possibilities are endless!  And you can forget that someday you started to learn the violin from somebody perhaps just like them…and would never have gotten to where you are if there weren’t like-minded people. 

(I am not even really upset today…just thinking of job interviews made me think of auditions, which brings us here…I actually had a really good day, 9 hours of teaching, and many of my students were great delights!)

Stress and a little rant

Today’s topic idea:  “Are you stressed out?”

Answer:  Of course!  I’m way too high strung to not be stressed out.  I set my standards for myself very high and constantly berate myself for not meeting them.  Of COURSE I’m stressed out—that’s why I constantly chew on my fingers and fingernails.  Duh.  *kicks blog impatiently*

Unrelated jump to teaching:

My students at Child of God School were great today.  I am very pleased with my new class arrangements (completely by grades, not level) as the behavior was better.  I have totally spoiled them however, as they were begging today “when is the next party?  can we play a game?”  Today was review day, since FEW had practiced over break.

Got a 4 mile run in this afternoon.  It’s not that cold outside, but my ear headband thingy kept slipping and my ears kept getting cold.  Boo.  Also I stepped in a pile of mud.  I should really just run inside.

Now I’m off to the Ballet School to teach my four students there.

Other random thought:  I was surfing the web (yes, I am old to use that term) and ran across a quiz called “how bad is your diet?”  The quiz intrigued me since it assumed my diet was bad (I think it’s actually pretty good, since I lost 35 pounds on it and now have maintained for months…).  The questions had to do with chocolate, caffeine, and artificial sweeteners.  Now, I’m not a diet expert.  But—what I needed in my diet when Joe changed it was more fruits/veggies and more lean protein.  What was the key for me was thinking of food as something GOOD for you.  Food gives you energy to live.  Versus, trying NOT to eat certain things, or eating dark chocolate because it’s “good for you” and using that as an excuse to be 100 pounds overweight.  Seriously.  More vegetables, lean protein, whole grains, cut out the junk.  Oh, and portion sizes.  I consider vegetables to be an unlimited portion, just fyi—as much as you want.  (I will stick to my old “nobody gets fat from eating too many fruits or vegetables”).  And guess what people:  every meal doesn’t need dessert, and if you want to lose weight, you’ll probably need to go to bed hungry on occasion.  And I probably should drink less coffee, but seriously, I’m not a saint. Okay, rant over.

HBBC:  January 5: 4 miles: 4 points, 7 f/v: 1 point, total: 5 points, January 6: o points, January 7: 1.3 miles: 1.3 points, workout with Mike: 4 points, 7 f/v: 1 point, total: 6.3 points

thoughts about violin, teaching, running, life.