Tornado!

So, a lot has happened since my last post. I have to laugh. I posted on Thursday, May 15. The next day was Friday, May 16, the day before we left on vacation.

I had a lot to do that day, but it was a day off. I had finished my spring semester of teaching, so I did laundry in the morning, and then my afternoon plan was to get a pedicure and then pack in the afternoon. I got home from my pedicure and Louie was working from home.

Storms had been predicted, but for spring in St Louis, this was nothing odd. We were under a tornado watch, but again, nothing odd. I had printed out some things for the trip (I like to have print outs because I’m old-school and like back up copies, plus internet can be unreliable in remote locations) and I had printed out my packing list and was working my way down it. I guess it was around 2:30/2:40, and my phone tornado alarm went off. Louie was working in his office and I was in the bedroom on the second floor so I quickly popped over and turned on the TV to see what the deal was, and the news said the tornado was on the ground at 64/170 heading east, which is…really near us. The outdoor sirens were going off, and I called out to Louie, I said, Louie, the tornado is heading towards us, and he said what, and I said, literally, it’s heading towards us, it’s coming up 64 or Forest Park Parkway or something, and he started running around unplugging stuff–we had a TV get destroyed once in a power surge. We quickly closed the storm windows that were up and started heading downstairs. It wasn’t even really storming or anything yet, it was just a normal day, until it wasn’t.

We hadn’t made it all the way down to the basement when the power went out. It was mid afternoon but it was all of a sudden pitch black outside. Louie started trying to look outside, it sounded like hail, but I just ran downstairs and yelled for him to follow. I don’t know if it was hail but it got really loud and lots of noise. He came down a minute later, and we stayed there for a few minutes. I brought up the news on my phone and they were talking about a tornado on the ground in the Central West End which is a neighborhood to the east of us, so we figured it had passed us at that point, but we just stayed there until the noise quieted down. It started looking a lot lighter too, and so we cautiously headed back upstairs.

Louie started looking in the backyard I think and I looked out the front, and oh my gosh, I didn’t know what to expect. I think I was looking at the cars first just to see if there was hail damage or something? and then I saw all the trees, and I felt all faint on my legs and I called out to Louie again to come look.

Right away I could tell that our Subaru was okay, and we could tell from inside that our house seemed pretty good overall and we hadn’t heard anything really bad, but across the street there were huge branches down and we weren’t sure if the Corolla, parked on the street had been hit. So we put on shoes and started venturing out slowly.

My car was fine and and we pulled some branches out of the road right away and some neighbors nearby started coming outside. People started walking out in a daze, just shocked…you could hear sirens all over, and it was just stunning. We didn’t know what had happened elsewhere yet (we were so very lucky compared to others, 5 people died, many lost their entire homes, I don’t think anyone in our neighborhood was injured) but we thought, we better walk over to Louie’s parents’ house to check on them, so we started doing that, which took us a little while and we kept getting sidetracked and having to step over major debris and trees. The trees were everywhere, across roads, fallen on homes, cars, pulling up sidewalks, causing water main breaks, etc.

We made it to Louie’s parents, and they were better off than us even, their street had less damage, though unfortunately they had no water due to the water main break (you can see in the above picture). We were lucky to still have water, as ours must have been coming from another direction.

People started pulling out chain saws and using jeeps to pull larger branches out of the roads and worked to get the streets cleared in the neighborhood at least enough to get through in some way, even though some major entrances and exits were closed. We didn’t really know the extent of the damage until much later. And of course the people in poorer neighborhoods north of the city who already had less resources ended up with more damage and less resources to deal with the damage, and as far as I know, over two weeks after the storm, nobody has received any help from FEMA.

Terrifying many people in the path of the storm didn’t even get notifications the storm was coming. There were issues in the city with tornado warnings not going out properly, and there are many issues with how clean up is going and how the aftermath is going, but I won’t make this blog post about that. I figure the blog is mostly about my life, so this post is mostly about my experience.

After a few hours Louie and I realized, hey, if we are still going on this trip tomorrow morning, we need to finish packing, and since we don’t have power and are unlikely to get it back before this evening or any time soon, we better get finished packing before dark. So, feeling a bit guilty to not help out more, we went back inside and packed. I had texted quite a few friends, and lots of people texted me, friends, students, colleagues, checking in, that day and over the next few days. In a way I felt very guilty leaving on a trip, but also, I’m not sure how much help I could have been staying around? I don’t know, there’s always guilt, isn’t there? We were lucky to still be able to go, and we were lucky that a tree didn’t hit our house.

We thought we escaped undamaged, but after we got back Louie took a good look at the roof with binoculars and realized maybe there were some issues so we are trying to get a roofing company out to look. Roofing companies are pretty busy with much bigger jobs so we know it might take awhile, but I think all the hail/flying tree debris might have caused a bit of damage afterall. We didn’t hear a freight train noise, but it sure was loud and there sure was a lot of wind. I think we were towards the edge of the tornado and I think it was picking up speed as it headed east past us. Honestly, we just got lucky. A few blocks south, a few blocks east, they all got hit a lot worse. I was really shaken up for a few days, maybe even longer, just a bit in shock really. It was unreal, walking out and around the neighborhood seeing all the devastation.

Anyway, I’m going to leave you there. Soon I will return and tell you about our amazing trip to Vancouver and Alaska, and probably also how we got to the airport the next morning, which was an adventure in itself. But until then, stay safe! And when the tornado sirens go off, go ahead and hit the basement.

Digging out of a hole

I have to say, this spring was really difficult. Mostly self inflicted work stuff, but then we added on selling the old house, and living through the end of democracy in our country, and it just got to be A LOT. March and April were just a blur, one thing into the next, and I found myself just barely getting by, going from on thing into the next, eat/sleep/work/read the same book series over and over, check things off, worky work, at one point I had a stack of checks on my desk but no energy or time to deposit them into my bank–I said to Louie, I’m too busy working to even put the money in the bank! He laughed and just headed over the old house to get it ready to sell.

We finally got the old house ready for the market, we put it on the market as in, we sold it in two days, we cleared it out, Louie did a lot of work on it for an as is sale, and we finally sold it…it was a lot harder that we thought it would be but it was exactly as hard as we thought it would be all at the same time. This all happened at the same time as the semester was coming to an end, while Louie was at an overseas conference, during Holy week while I was playing so many services, running from place to place, while men were being sent to El Salvador for having brown skin in the United States.

My Uncle Ed died. He had cancer. I was glad we got to visit him last year. He was always a wonderful force of nature, full of energy, full of ideas, full of good and positivity and can do attitude. I have many memories of him over the years–he was my mom’s older brother and he was always full of energy and ideas, never one to just sit still and let somebody else take charge. I know as he got older he slowed down and changed, but I didn’t live close enough to really see that change, so my memories stay with younger Ed, and I suppose I am younger Hannah in my memories as well. It is hard to grow old, yet harder still not to.

This week has been a lot easier though. Teaching is winding down and we are getting ready for a vacation: an Alaskan Cruise! I am super excited, yet worried about the packing. I will be excited once we are there. I am not looking forward to the travel and a little worried about the predicted rain, but looking forward to the scenery, the adventure, and the not working. We may just stay in Canada…we cruise out of Vancouver to Alaska. If you don’t see me again, we have declared asylum in Canada.

April Showers

It’s the law, every year I have to write a blog post called April Showers, because every year it rains for several days straight and I get depressed. That was last week.

But seriously, this has been a crazy time. I know I say that every year, but this year we added on getting a house on the market to the usual April craziness. Take on the usual getting ready for the end of the semester, preparing students for recitals, festivals, juries, tests, etc. Performances, rearranging schedules for a week of the Wizard of Oz. Louie taking a trip to Germany for a conference. The dryer breaks down and we need a new one. We get the old house on the market. This means we get it cleaned out and ready for pictures, no small feat. Louie spends spring break on this. I spend spring break working, because I do that. Then we spend all our free time continuing to work on it, and it goes on the market, and he goes to Germany and we get a few offers and we go under contract, woo hoo!!!

So then I went to Chicago for a weekend for a quick trip, which was super fun! I went to see a violin recital with Julia Fischer and Jan Liesiecki. I drove up with my friend Manuela and her husband one day, stayed overnight and then drove back the next.

I had a week not worrying about the house, air drying clothes because I needed to wait for Louie to return home to get the new dryer (we needed to deal with a gas line issue as well, thankfully the washer still worked well enough) and I even managed to get my taxes done! And now I am in the home stretch, the show I’m playing is super fun, my taxes are filed though not yet paid (I will wait till the last minute for that), the world is burning but what can we do other than protest and call and I’ll protest when I’m not working I guess, and Louie is spending the weekend working on the house and I’ll spend the weekend at the Music Club Festival and playing the Wizard of Oz and seeing a student perform at Wash U. Two weeks left of class AND we close in two weeks. It’ll be a nice time to have a cash infusion. Long story as to why we moved two years ago and are selling now but it involved some renting, some repairs, some issues with a bunch of stuff, but I think it worked out for the best. And we ended up having a really terrific real estate agent for us.

Fingers crossed the rest of the month works out smoothly enough and there are no bombs dropped on us, figuratively or literally. I guess keep an eye on your signal chats, if you have them.

March Madness

We are definitely having the weather whiplash this month! Winter, spring, winter, spring, tornados, winter, etc.

It’s been a busy month for me, which is partly why I haven’t written here. I haven’t felt creatively inspired either, just sort of busy and like what I am doing is the same thing over and over…teaching, concerts, watching tv, reading, teaching, concerts, watching tv, reading, etc.

But a few highlights! Or lowlights, depending. I had a wedding in Paducah, and Louie came along for the ride. He had a lovely time exploring downtown Paducah while I played the wedding and we had a great time in the car chatting and listening to a podcast together. Then I headed to Cape Girardeau for a few nights to play with the symphony there–I played viola and carpooled with a few friends. It was a nice respite from the usual schedule, so I’m glad I did it, even though it was a pain to get my schedule organized.

Pictures of me walking along the flood wall in Cape Girardeau. It was a nice time and I would do it again in the future. I met some wonderful people and got to know people I already knew a bit better, and played some fun music.

Oh, and we had tornado warnings Friday night. I was playing a concert with the Irish tenors and we had to stop the concert and evacuate the entire audience to the basement. This luckily went very smoothly and after the storm passed (an hour or so) we played the second half of the concert and then we all went home.

One thing that is finally in progress here is that we are getting the old house ready to sell. It’s been a slog and there were a lot of decisions to be made (by Louie, as it is his house, not mine, I am just support), and now the decision is made and we are cleaning it out and hope to have it on the market by the end of the month, ahhh! Louie spent most of his spring break there doing stuff. We are selling as is which was part of the decision making. I think it will do wonders for our mental health to unload that property and be able to fully move forward and not have it hanging over our heads.

The cats enjoy the sun but get confused when the radiators aren’t warm anymore. Full disclosure: I don’t actually know how they feel, but I imagine they wonder why sometimes they are warm and other times they aren’t. Perhaps they even forget over the summer that they used to be warm and then are pleasantly surprised all over again? Oh to be a cat for even an hour to understand them more.

Remember how I mentioned we are going on a cruise? When we first booked it, we invited a couple we are friends with and have traveled with before and they said the dates didn’t work out, but we just found out their schedules changed and now they are coming! So they will be there too, which we are excited about! We will do some things together and other things apart and it will be great fun.

This week is lighter on teaching since many students are on spring break, or is it Spring Break, but of course since when I see a blank space in my calendar I fill it, I have a variety of extra gigs: two concerts this weekend, one with Brahms Requiem and another with Bartok Concerto for Orchestra, so lots of fun!

Alaskan Cruise

Okay, so I’m completely over COVID and have felt fine for some time, in case you were worried. I did fall off the map here a little bit, but that was due to us deciding to take a cruise in May! I never thought I would cruise again since Louie was opposed, but I convinced him to try an Alaskan cruise in May out of Vancouver. We are very excited, and I’ve been doing research on it when I have time rather than blogging. But today I thought, maybe I’ll blog a bit and catch you up on things.

February has been an odd month. I missed a bunch of stuff due to COVID, and then I was back at it, feeling great, not contagious (I hope, who really knows) and had a VERY busy Valentine’s day weekend. I played for three different romantic concerts and had a blast doing it, then it was a Metropolitan Orchestra concert and hearing a concert at the 560 with Karen Gomyo and Orion Weiss.

Dressed up for the concert, this one on viola.

Karen and Orion, smiling at each other after a successful performance.

The following week was a bit derailed by bad weather, with one rehearsal getting canceled and more online teaching. I finished off the week with a long day playing just a few songs with the St Louis Children’s Choirs, but it was fun.

In between it all I have been researching Alaska as well as working on an asynchronous online Violin Teaching Course I’m taking with the Royal Conservatory of Music (Canadian) but there are due dates every month. I have most of our trip planned as well as flights, hotels, and many excursions. It will be a blast!

March looks very busy: both Louie and I have some trips, mine very small overnight trips here and there and him a trip to Germany to present at a conference and visit an old friend. Luckily work has already reimbursed him for the flight so he doesn’t need to worry about funding–the situation with universities right now is scary and a bit dire, and we don’t know what will happen. Here’s an interesting article about university funding and why they can’t just “use their endowments” to cover things.

But we won’t let them ruin things, as I’ve said. Everybody has to do their own thing, but in my household we are doing our best to continue living our best lives WHILE doing what we can to make other people’s lives better too. I continue to donate to groups that are important to me (I donate regularly to Planned Parenthood, Kiva, Safe Connections, and a few more) and I call and email my representatives, for what it’s worth (more than it feels, I hope!). I would love to get out for a protest, but life is too busy right now, so I’m doing what I can. But I’m also continuing to do fun things and plan for the future, because I am hopeful…somewhat.

Here are two cats lying on top of radiators for warmth. The colder it gets outside the warmer the radiators get, and the happier the cats are!

This week is warmer though, highs in the high 50’s/low 60’s. It’s great!

Louie and I went to Jazz St Louis on Friday night with friends. We had dinner there and enjoyed a great show by Kendrick Smith and his band. I had a delicious salmon dinner and we had a great time.

We used to do a small subscription but the new CEO took away the parking perk so we figured it wasn’t worth subscribing. We also heard and read some bad things about him, and aren’t fans, but we wanted to support Kendrick Smith, as he’s a terrific local musician.

Anyway, this weekend is busy with some out of town gigs–for some reason this year I started getting invited to play some things further afield, nothing fancy or exotic, like southern Illinois and Kentucky, and I’ve done a few of them. I don’t know if the trend will continue, but the other weird thing is that they are mostly on viola…if the trend continues I’ll have to get a whole new blog for this thing, which seems tiring and difficult at my age!

Anyway, if you’ve been on an Alaskan cruise, I’d love recommendations, though don’t be mad if I don’t take them. We are visiting Vancouver for a few days, then sailing Holland America and stopping in Juneau, Skagway, and Ketchikan.

COVID

What a week it has been. Thursday I tested positive for COVID (symptoms, sore throat, congestion, chills) and then I spent some time telling various contractors for weekend gigs and that was a whole thing. I was really quite disappointed about missing stuff, but that’s the way of it, right?

So then I did some online teaching, not a lot, which was good for a few days because I definitely had two days of feeling quite lousy. But now I’m feeling much better but possibly still contagious, as I’m still congested. I haven’t taken a new test yet but might today.

It’s been a lot. This whole “living through an administrative coup” is tough, and takes a lot of emotional bandwidth. And today they are talking about how judge’s can’t tell people what to do, so I guess we know what that’s all about.

We are pretty stressed in the house, worrying about what these cuts to the NIH and NSF will do to Wash U and Louie’s job and our health insurance, but we also don’t want to let them win, so it’s a lot. A LOT. I left a whole bunch of voicemails on my senator’s voicemail boxes last night telling them how I felt about them ending cancer research, and I suggest you do to. If you don’t think this will decimate medical research, you are wrong.

My quartet played a concert at the Kemper Art Museum last week–isn’t that a fantastic backdrop? Also, I believe it was made with legos, if I’m remembering correctly. (The brain fog is real!)

We had a nice crowd and had a fantastic time. We played a piece by a fairly unknown composer named Maddalena Laura Sirmen and Debussy’s String Quartet. Side note: when I was a girl I was told that we didn’t play music by women because women didn’t write music that was any good. I have since learned that of course that wasn’t true at all. And IN REAL TIME I am seeing how the men of the current regime are making people cover up evidence of women and people of color achieving greatness…if that isn’t a true lesson as to how much women and people of color have truly accomplished, yet these white men are so fragile that they can’t handle it…anyway, the piece by Sirmen was lovely and we plan to play more of her quartets. And of course Debussy was lovely as well, because women can write music and men can write music, and neither need to compete with one another.

While I was sick, which I arguably still am, I spent a lot of time lying in bed reading and petting these cats. I also spent too much time doomscrolling.

Things to do: make sure you are calling your reps. Yes, they may not care, but you may also give them strength to do the right thing, who knows. Protest if you can. Do nice things for others. And be sure to take time for yourself as well: do not let them destroy your mental health. They love making you upset! We can still have joy through our troubles.

thoughts about violin, teaching, running, life.