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I am a violinist. I also enjoy running, working out, reading, and hanging with my friends and cat.

September was flying by but now it’s not

However, this week is going decently fast, as weeks tend to do. This morning I was pretty lazy but thus far I have at least washed and dried a load of laundry (fascinating!) and practiced. I also ate half of a grapefruit and it was delicious. (That wasn’t all I ate.)

I woke up feeling really stressed out, but things are better now. Sometimes I get stressed out when I have to send emails that are basically just me sticking up for myself. Sigh. Everything turned out great, because all of us women ARE told that we need to stick up for ourselves more and stop using vocal fry and saying “sorry” and “just” and then our lives will be great just like the men’s lives. I do find, however, that when I stand firm that people tend to respect that, so maybe some of the articles are correct. And the rest should stop telling women how to act more like men and consider that maybe, just maybe, we like the world that we exist in and want the whole world to be like our world, and why should we have to change when men don’t have to? But I digress. As usual. Sorry.

All that being said, I am often afraid to stick up for myself, for fear of making people angry. And when I do, and it turns out well, I feel like a real person, a real adult. And then I think, hey, gimme another 37 years (that’s my age, FYI) and I’ll have this whole adult thing DOWN.

Wednesday is my lighter teaching day this fall. I have only 4 hours of students and there’s even a 30 minute break in that segment, so that’s mostly why I was lazy today. I was tired and needed a day to relax a bit. I’m on my third cup of coffee and it’s simply fantastic. I wrote just fantastic first but then edited it since we ladies aren’t supposed to say just anymore. (I’m assuming we still need to be pretty and smile in public though, right?)

This is where ordinarily I would insert a cat picture! But I don’t have any available to me that you haven’t already seen.

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Oh whew, there we go! Old cat pictures that you’ve forgotten that you’ve seen!

So, tonight I am going to make tacos. I have tofu, sweet potatoes, onions, and queso fresco, plus Trader Joe’s Green Salsa. I can turn that into something delicious enough, I’m sure. Taco Wednesday!

I had a million thoughts when I sat down to blog, and I still do, but most of them are even more boring and unsuitable than what I’ve already typed! It’s a hard balance between writing enough that my blog feels somewhat personal, and sharing too much (for a variety of reasons.)

Practicing wise, I’ve been working on: Beethoven Opus 59 #1, Bach Partita no. 1 for Solo Violin, and a variety of Etudes, including Gavinies and some stuff I’m going through to review for my students. I also practice scales regularly enough—I have a system where I play all the 3 octave scales in a row, going up chromatically, and then all the arpeggios (Flesch) going around the circle of 5ths. I learned to do this at CIM while studying with Linda Cerone, and it’s a valuable skill. If I ever have students advanced enough I will make them do the same! After performing last Saturday night one of the guests asked me how much I practice each day. I’m ashamed sometimes to admit that it’s often closer to an hour than it is any more than that…some days none at all, other days closer to two hours, but that’s where I’ve been for some time. In the past years I’ve practiced much more, (and also much less), and I find that this is a good amount generally for where I am and the amount of repertoire I need to be learning. If I have more performances/pieces to learn at once I make the time for more practicing, but for general maintenance and only a few performances coming up, 1-2 hours is plenty. How about the rest of you? If you are a professional or semi-professional musician reading this, how much do you practice these days?

And on THAT incredibly boring note about practicing, I shall go. I need to practice a bit more before my first student!

Dog swim and more

Here we are again, on a Monday. I ran 8 miles this morning as part of my training for the Go Halloween Half Marathon and now I’m catching up on some things before I start teaching for the week…

The weekend went by quickly, as they are prone to do. At least I only had one work-related commitment so it wasn’t too crazy!

Friday night we went to a local Mexican restaurant, Lily’s, with some friends. I think Louie and I have developed a problem (it’s been years I’m sure) where we really will always pick a Mexican restaurant over anything else. It’s not JUST the margaritas, it’s also the tacos, and the beans, and the chips…I promise! We had a great time.

Saturday was the Maplewood Dog Swim. Mackenzie had had a rough day on Friday involving having to spend a good deal of time at the vet (no worries, everything seems to be under control) so it was nice for her to get to run around with other dogs and swim to her heart’s content. We were there about 1 1/2 hours, and by the end she was really dragging, but kept insisting she was still having fun.

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She didn’t like to jump into the pool and instead always used the stairs or a shallow entrance. She was very smart though and also knew how to use the stairs to get out of the pool!

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The pool was fun to watch for us too—there were dozens of dogs running around and frolicking and trying to fetch tennis balls. It was a real hoot!

Saturday night I had a performance with a pianist I hadn’t played with before. He is also a doctor, but is an excellent performer! We played two pieces together for a program at a local synagogue. Afterwards he and his wife and Louie and I went to Basso for a bite to eat. Louie and I had been there before but not for awhile. We each got a little pizza and shared some roasted cauliflower, and it was very tasty.

Sunday we went on a bike ride on Grant’s Trail. I like it, but I think Louie found it a little dull. We’ll have to get out to a more scenic ride next time, probably along the river (and NOT the River Des Peres) would be better but we just weren’t sure how all the rain over the summer had affected those trails and didn’t want to have to turn back. Otherwise I spent Sunday cleaning and doing other stuff around the house and then had dinner with my friend Sarah. We are both violin teachers and spent a lot of time sharing stories and possibly making some plans for joint studio projects.

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I saw this on the internet the other day and thought it was great. Maybe I need it printed out to show my students. A small percentage of them would find it most amusing and helpful, and the rest would probably just be baffled. LOTR is so a few years ago, isn’t it?

How’s your Monday going? What is your favorite Mexican restaurant?

Yellowstone…everything here is more amazing than anywhere else (Road Trip Part 5)

Part 1: There and Back Again

Part 2: Bouldering in Boulder

Part 3: Camping isn’t so bad

Part 4: There really is no place like Wyoming

Day 11, continued:

We drove into Yellowstone through the Southern entrance. Right after entering the park a coyote went across the road. That was, in retrospect, the first sign that Yellowstone was going to be an amazing time!

Honestly. One of the reasons I’ve had trouble getting started on this post is because we just did so darned much in Yellowstone, and I took so, SO many pictures. I’d been to Yellowstone as a kid, in 1991, and I remember really enjoying it, but man, oh man, I had no idea. Just no idea.

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One thing to know is that the park is huge. Nearly 3500 square miles. We had three nights of camping reservations, and then we would have to leave. So we weren’t going to be able to see it all, and in fact, we would be lucky to see the highlights!

Anyway, we entered the park and then had about an hour of driving until we’d get to our campground, and since it had already been a very long (and wonderful) day at this point, we decided to mostly drive straight there with perhaps an occasional photo stop. Like the above one at Lake Yellowstone…which made us say, Tetons who?

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We found Bridge Bay campground within any trouble, and went to check in. Check in was really busy, but well organized. There are nearly 500 sites at the campground, so you can imagine that around evening plenty of folks are checking in! We got a very nice wooded site where our tent was tucked into a corner with nice privacy—the views weren’t like Glacier Bay in RMNP but the woods were lovely and the lakeview was a short walk away.

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This was a great picture…except the construction truck drove into it. And then started setting up for construction so things only got worse. But really, it was a quick walk from the campground!

I should also mention: when I checked in the ranger was VERY stern about the bear safety rules, and in fact I had to sign that I understood and agreed to properly store all food and toiletries, and in fact we weren’t even allowed to have WATER in the tent with us. We could keep things in the car trunk though, which I’m told isn’t an option in Yosemite, so there’s that. Anyway, our first night at the campsite, basically, we set up the tent, went for a walk, made a fire, and ate dinner. And that was that!

Day 12: Our first full day in Yellowstone! I’m excited just remembering how awesome it was.

We decided to tackle the lower loop of the road through Yellowstone on this day. (It’s a figure 8). Basically, today was GEYSER day.

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Here you can see Lake Yellowstone and see the West Thumb area (I think) with the geysers and other thermal features. The West Thumb Geyser Basin, as it’s called, was our first stop for the day. We were there before 8 am and just barely beat a busload of tourists! Luckily there was enough room for everyone, though we had to duck around folks taking selfies and whatnot, but the boardwalks are pretty roomy. Being around these thermal features was like being in a different world: after spending nearly two weeks in the mountains, we were (mostly) used to them, but hot water and steam coming out of the ground? Totally new and weird!

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We learned so much about the thermal features over the course of the day. I enjoyed West Thumb because they were set right up against the backdrop of the beauty of Lake Yellowstone and the nearby mountain ranges…the steam from the various thermal features is otherworldly. I could definitely see why nobody believed the first explorers!

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We got back on the road and headed towards Old Faithful. We made a quick stop to look at a waterfall.

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One thing that started hitting us about Yellowstone was that these little side stops that hardly anybody visited, random water falls and such…these little stops would be the HIGHLIGHT of other places! We might have hiked several miles somewhere else to see this waterfall…that we hurried by in our quest to get to Old Faithful before everybody else.

The Old Faithful area is pretty crazy. There were multi-lane exits off the road to get there, and huge amounts of parking. The geyser itself has seating for hundreds in front of it. We naturally arrived right after an eruption, so we took advantage of the indoor plumbing at the nearby lodge (and HOT water to wash my hands in, just crazy) and then headed out to explore the nearby Upper Geyser Basin. We caught a few interesting eruptions there—the Castle Geyser, one of the Lion geysers and the Anemone geyser for sure.

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After looking around a bit we headed back to Old Faithful as it was near the predicted eruption time. We didn’t have to wait long—there was a giant crowd at this point so we didn’t get terribly close. Maybe it was more impressive up close, but I don’t know.

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One thing we had to remind ourselves of repeatedly was that we needed to practice patience with the crowds and potential idiots that we would be surrounded by. One thing that made me almost lose it was seeing a couple of parents encouraging their toddler to feed a chipmunk cheerios. Aside from the fact that this is completely illegal…I mean really. First off, if you feed a wild animal then they might grow to depend on humans, who aren’t around year-round so said animal might starve in the winter. If you don’t care about THAT then maybe you’ll care that they might bite your kid’s finger (we were told by Brandon, our bike tour guide from earlier that finger bites were the number one reason for ER visits in Estes Park) and if that doesn’t mean anything, remember that they might be carrying the plague.

The other thing is just that there is a lot of traffic, both vehicular and pedestrian, and that can be frustrating. So practicing patience is important in order to keep the stress levels low and keep the fun levels high!

After Old Faithful the next stop was Midway Geyser Basin, home of the Grand Prismatic Spring.

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The Grand Prismatic Spring was giant and overwhelming and absolutely beautiful. The colors were unbelievable.

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This was a beautiful stop!

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Next we had a little picnic lunch and then drove through Firehole Drive. We saw a few more springs and geysers and enjoyed a slightly less crowded area than we had been seeing. It’s funny how quickly Yellowstone can go from busy and overcrowded to empty and quiet!

We skipped quite a few potentially interesting stops next, but we knew we couldn’t see it all. We decided to do a “quick” stop at the Artist’s Paint Pots because there was a little more walking involved and we wanted to get out of the car for a bit more. The paint pots were awesome and different enough from anything else we’d seen yet, so of course totally worth it.

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The last big stop I wanted us to do for the day was the Norris Geyser Basin. Wow, was the parking lot crowded. We got lucky and were able to squeeze into a tiny spot at the end that most of the bigger cars couldn’t fit into! Norris was amazing. It was truly the best actual representation of a post-apocalyptic world that I could imagine. And in fact, one day the Yellowstone Caldera will likely kill all life as we know it…

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Things that I did not do at Norris: use the toilet. I went in, and I walked back out. It was one of the most disgusting bathrooms I’ve ever been in and I figured I could wait…forever.

Louie and I were desperate to see wildlife by this point. Where were all the bison?? We soon found out. We were driving away from Norris and heading back on the loop towards Bridge Bay and noticed someone coming towards us flashing their headlights. Naturally we thought they meant a cop, but suddenly we saw a single male bison walking along the road. That’s what they meant! We were panicking with excitement, and I managed to take a picture out the window right up close to it! After we went by we were just so thrilled. Such magnificent creatures, but so funny looking really, with huge heads, and somewhat skinny looking legs, and just walking along the road with no cares.

Then we got close to Hayden Valley…and we saw more bison. So many more! At first it was a little group, and then it was perhaps 100’s. We realized if we had just turned left out of our campground in the morning rather than right we would have seen so many bison first thing!

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Quickly we got the hang of the “pull off the side of the road” for wildlife move. Louie and I had a lot of fun looking at and photographing bison, and then we found a huge group of cars and it turned out there was a bear, way far away though. We spent quite a lot of time trying to see it though, but didn’t have too much luck. Then we ran into an area where people were trying to look for wolves, which seemed scary, but also those people were intense, with high-tech looking scopes and whatnot. Louie made a snap decision then to pull into the Mud Volcano area, and that’s where a couple of bison were walking across the parking lot! Just when we’d think that we were over the bison we’d get all tickled by them again—I think they are fantastic! We saw that about 5 of them had headed up into the thermal features area of Mud Volcano, so we parked and went up the boardwalks to check them out.

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We were careful to keep our distance, but it was neat to see them a little closer and doing something more interesting than simply eating grass! They were snorting, and two of them were butting horns a bit.

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We decided, after awhile, to head around the other side of Mud Volcano to see the springs and stuff, and that’s when we saw another group of bison, with a young one too, come galloping across the boardwalk and roll around in the mud, leap around the various hot springs, and then run further away. They were moving so fast, and seemed to be really having a good time! I was pretty frightened while at the same time being really excited. Louie wanted to follow them and get closer and I was a little scared especially since I’d seen how fast they could move! We could hear them, snorting and making all kinds of noise, but they were a bit out of sight.

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We finally decided to head back around and down towards the car. We saw a park ranger and asked her about the bison, and we learned that it was mating season, which explains the head-butting, and she also said that the bison DO walk on the boardwalk sometimes (Louie was thinking maybe they didn’t, kind of like how roads will have those bars in them so the cows don’t cross) and that they break them a lot and especially over the winter. Good to know!

We finally headed back to the car after all the excitement. Seriously, it was the best day of the vacation! Louie and I couldn’t get over what an amazing day we had had…we made it back to our campsite around dark, and quickly made dinner and a fire to relax by.

(And since I have been having trouble finding the time to finish these posts…I’m going to publish this day alone and then finish up Yellowstone in a later post. Enjoy!!!)

Dogs and Cats Living Together

Lately I’ve mostly been taking pictures of all the animals…I guess that means I’m not traveling and I’m just hanging out at home working. And that the animals are adorable, when they aren’t being really annoying and yelling at me for food.

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How cute are they all?

Okay, maybe you aren’t here for the cat pictures (are you crazy?)…oh, but one thing about Oistrakh, aka Dr. Oysterman, the cat formerly known as “fatness” who has successfully lost a few pounds…okay. So in the middle of the night I’ll wake up and hear her just YOWLING away, sounding like she’s trapped or in trouble, and I go to see what’s wrong, and there she is, sitting near a couple of ponytail holders. Cats are crazy.

I had been avoiding lifting weights at the gym for…several months…and yesterday went to do a bit of a full body workout. So I’m really sore today and debating if I’m going to go for a run in a bit or just take the time to stretch and foam roll and run on Friday (tomorrow is too busy). It might be wiser to do the first.

Wednesdays I only have 4 hours of teaching, so I feel like I have lots of time to get things done. Monday I spent 2-3 hours working on a newsletter for my studio. Seriously, that long. I was working with a new system and using MailChimp, which was recommended by a colleague, and now I’m finally probably in 2009 as far as technology goes. I think the finished product was a definite improvement to my typical “block of text” emails (that hardly anybody reads) so I hope that this will improve studio communications. After all of that it still had an incorrect date…I should get somebody to proofread things before I send them out, I guess. (Would this also apply to blog posts?) The other neat thing about MailChimp is that I can see which of my students have opened what I sent out! And which haven’t, though I don’t know if that means it went to junk mail or they just haven’t checked their email yet, or what.

Are you an “inbox zero” person? As in, do you try to get your inbox down to no emails? I’m never that extreme, but I try to stay on top of my emails and always read them. I love when my inbox all fits in one screen, without scrolling. I use Gmail, and I tend to leave the emails in the inbox until the conversation is done or if it’s about an upcoming gig, until the gig is over. I could archive those things, but I find that it’s easier to bring up information on my phone if I leave the email in the inbox rather than another place. (Sometimes it seems like my phone is unable to find archived emails at all). But that means when I have a lot of “unfinished” conversations going and several upcoming gigs or concerts, I have more emails in my inbox than I’d like.

In contrast though, I’ve seen friends log onto their email and they will have hundreds or THOUSANDS of unread emails. That would drive me completely bonkers! But I assume that a certain percentage of my students are like that, and that’s why it’s hard to communicate with people. (This particular newsletter was about a policy reminder and the date for the fall recital). I know everybody is bombarded with lots of emails, plus I imagine all the activities your child is enrolled in send emails about important dates and things…and it seems like email and mass communications don’t always make things easier. But in the past I probably would have mailed important information to people, and they might not have read that either, so I’m sticking with what I’ve got!

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How many of you use timehop? I added the app a few months ago. Each day it shows you pictures and things you posted on the same day in past years for instagram and facebook. Sometimes I get a little sad seeing posts (and remember how much BETTER my life is now!) but mostly it’s a real delight, especially seeing photos like the one above!

Getting divorced and ending a 14 year relationship isn’t easy. Though it’s been a few years now, sometimes things still hit me from my previous life. One of things that I struggle with the most is feeling like what I do is important…I’ve lately realized (and I’m not trying to lay blame here, just to analyze) that for years I felt that what I was doing with my life was less important, that freelancing wasn’t satisfying or something to be proud of, that I was wasting my conservatory education. I think of the number of times my career and jobs were mocked, both by my previous partner, and various friends and colleagues…and it’s no wonder I’ve had a hard time feeling good about myself. It’s unfortunate how I let people make me feel so worthless.

I thought of that because  I had a rehearsal last night with the Metropolitan Orchestra of St. Louis. We were playing Beethoven’s Symphony #6. I used to play in orchestra all the time before I moved to St Louis, but I remember so many conversations where anything I missed about living and freelancing in Cleveland was ridiculed and mocked…and I apparently had internalized that enough that I was okay with it! I let other people project their own insecurities onto me to bring me down…it seemed for awhile that it was a really common thing for people in my age group to do!

So, yeah, I’ve come a long way. Last night’s rehearsal was fun. And teaching is so worthwhile, (even though politicians doesn’t think so) and playing in my quartet and playing with various pianists like my friend Jen and others…this is all worthwhile stuff, and I do have things to offer the world, even if I no longer am a full-time orchestra musician. Who said that was the only respectable job? 🙂 And why would I let people demean me so much?

So there’s me being a bit introspective…thanks a lot timehop! But in all seriousness, mostly I’m appreciating how much I’ve grown and how much stronger I am today than in my “3 years ago” posts.  And how appreciative I am that today the people who are important in my life build me up rather than tearing me down! And I hope that I am doing the same to them.

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And that no matter what life brings, I will always wear ridiculously large sunglasses.

Fall-Se Alarm

See what I did there? After blogging about fall and pumpkin spice and cooler weather (okay, I didn’t really do any of those things…but my last title had the word “fall” in it) it’s been a really hot week and weekend, and I must say…I’m over it. Luckily this morning hasn’t been so bad, mostly overcast and breezy, so fingers crossed we are moving on? (Full disclosure, I started this post last night, and today I’m already more pleased by the weather, so…maybe things are turning.)

This weekend was pretty fun!  Louie’s dad was visiting from Philly for a couple days so we went out to eat a few times and did a little sightseeing. We went to Treehouse, which is a vegan restaurant that I am conflicted about. I don’t like that their descriptions of dishes involve words like “sausage” or “chicken” and don’t specify how those things are actually made. I get that they want to show you that you don’t need meat, but to me it feels like deception. I had the seitan katsu, which was actually quite good, but the description said it was chicken (which I knew it wasn’t…it was seitan!) which to me, is just weird. Nonetheless, the meal was tasty enough, especially the beets—I’ve become obsessed with beets! The other meal we had was at Olio, which is quickly becoming one of my favorite restaurants. My favorite dishes there are the smoked whitefish salad and the roasted beets with ricotta. Yummy!

We also went up to walk across the Old Chain of Rocks bridge. I’d been there on my bike before, but this time we just parked (on the Illinois side, the Missouri parking lot was closed) and walked across.

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These little buildings fascinated us. It seems they are water intake towers and are inaccessible today.

Yesterday Louie and I met up with some people my friend Eliana’s birthday. We had pizza at Dewey’s Pizza and frozen yogurt at a nearby Tutti Frutti. It was nice to meet a few new people and celebrate her 30th (so young!) birthday with her. It’s always fun to chat with friends of friends and expand our social horizons.

And then this morning I ran 7 miles (around the Botanical Gardens and Tower Grove park from my house) and now…getting ready to teach and must do a bit of practicing. Luckily there is leftover pizza to refuel after my run (great for carb-loading AND refueling, right?!).

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Today I have a few students who wanted to take Labor Day off for various reasons, but I’m teaching the rest. I figured I started late enough in August that we didn’t need a break yet! Talk to me in a couple months…and I’ve set up a fall recital date for the students, which is a first for us. I have other ideas too, like some sort of ensemble Christmas performance with another teacher, but I also know things just get crazy around that time (for me and everybody else) and I’m not sure I want to tackle too much.

Oh, and I promise more trip recaps are on their way. I’m working on the Yellowstone blog post—it’s just a long post but I am working on it, in case you are wondering. I haven’t forgotten, and I will finish!

Heading Towards Fall

All over Facebook people are lamenting today as the end of summer. It seems like yes, we are heading towards fall, but I consider that summer ended when I went back to work after vacation, or for kids it’s the first day of school, or for bloggers it’s when pumpkin hits the store shelves…today is simply September 1.

I’m still trying to work out my teaching schedule. I’d had it worked out but then a few people asked to switch…it’s tough because there just aren’t times to switch to. I want to accommodate people, but I’m not entirely sure this will all work out for everybody. I’m doing my best, and the thing is, I still have several hours of openings scattered throughout the week, they just aren’t the most popular hours…I’ve had to turn down some multiple child family student requests because I only have random 30 minute lessons scattered about though, which I hate doing. I hate turning down students, but time is finite and a weekly schedule can only fit in so many students.

Of course, my mornings are basically free. Sometimes when I get stressed over finances I start to think about trying to find paying work for the morning—maybe a part time job, maybe I should learn how to teach some of those group music classes for little kids?? Or should I be doing volunteer work, or trying to find something at a school? Though I like having my mornings free for rehearsals and practicing…it’s a tough call. I go back and forth. I usually teach for 20-22 hours a week, spend anywhere from 2 to 6 hours on phone/email/paperwork for that. I’ll have anywhere from 2 to 8 hours of rehearsal, usually 2 but that just depends and then maybe a wedding gig will take up 2 to 3 hours, or maybe it’ll be two that take up 8  hours in a day. Low end I’m at 24-26 hours of work, high end well over 40 hours. Then add in practicing…this totally ranges, but I shoot for 1 hour a day, and sometimes it’s much more. (And let’s not pretend I can do what I do without practicing at all, because I can’t.) Obviously I have extra time on some weeks (this week for instance) but other weeks I am totally swamped. Sometimes I think a more regular schedule must be nice—that’s when I daydream about only teaching and playing serious music at my leisure!  But the other thing about me is that I can get bored doing the same thing over and over. I love the variety of freelancing, though this year seems like I’m more of a private teacher than a freelancer…but I definitely have gigs on my calendar for the future.

And there you have it. My super interesting random thoughts for today. I’m off to get a haircut now and then teaching and hopefully squeeze in some practicing, since that hasn’t happened yet today. Priorities!