Just so you all know, I mostly blog when I have a little free time and often when I’m overthinking things. If I have free time, sometimes I choose to read a book instead…so I’m not necessarily as stressed out and anxious as I might sound!

I am finding it hard to be inspired to DO anything this summer though. I was just talking with the mom of a student about this…it’s so easy when you have more time to think you’ll do this and that (for me, I planned to do a lot of de-cluttering, re-organize my kitchen, get some house repairs going with estimates at least, and do some sort of larger business accounting things that might save me some money in the longer term)…and then you realize over a month has gone by and mostly you’ve been reading books and planning your upcoming vacation instead. So I could throw in the towel and say, those other things are going to get done, or I could do what I would do during the year and break those tasks into smaller tasks and get going on them. I decided a few days ago to postpone some of the business tasks because they just aren’t really necessary, and started on one. And then I guess I’ll look at concrete work (my front steps are a mess!) and also plan out some time this week to de-clutter a few things.  And I just made an appointment to get some boxes picked up for donations, which means that I’ll have a deadline to get those put together.

The truth is that I love lying around reading. I also love making music, and I love going on trips and planning them out ahead of time and writing about them afterwards and talking about them. And it should be okay with me to do that—to read a book in the middle of an afternoon guilt-free! I just have this great fear of being lazy and wasting my life

Miles does not have this fear. Miles does exactly what he wants.

I just got the mail and I got a couple of books I’d ordered to inform and inspire my trip in August (to Charleston and Savannah). I think I’ll take a little time and get started on my reading. I should do a little practicing, but I just haven’t been in the mood lately, and I think that’s okay. My goal for this week is to get a few things done, but also to truly allow myself to relax and wallow in having a little more time. I also have a few more things to do…a gig, plus a recording session with my band—we are recording at least 3 tunes, and I’m excited but nervous about it. Several of the tunes have improvisational parts and it seems more permanent to record an improvised part than to do it on the spot, yet, I want it to feel on the spot. So it’s just something to ponder, and probably I need to just relax and make sure I get a lot of sleep before then.

My friend and bandmate Meghan. We hosted an open mic last night. I was exhausted by the end because I’d been up so late the night before with our 4th of July barbecue! But it was quite fun nonetheless.

Annoying banking things: trying to transfer money from one HSA to another. Maybe I can get that figured out before my next student arrives!

Or maybe I should just try to finish my current book as to start on one of the new ones I just got?