My wedding: weight loss incentive

I’m going to talk about weight loss here.  Don’t read it if that is a trigger for you.

I wrote about body image a few weeks ago.  I wanted to continue along the same lines.

I used to look down on people who wanted to lose weight for their wedding, or for other special events.  After all, why not lose weight just to lose weight or to look great all the time?

Lately I’ve been putting together some old pictures for potential wedding stuff.  And I’ve realized how FAT I used to look.  This is partly because I am incredibly judgmental of myself.  And partly because I WAS fat.

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I am not as fat anymore.  But I still want to lose more weight, as regular blog-readers know.  But I’ve gotten lazy with my diet (not with my workouts though) and it’s harder to be as strict with myself without true incentive.

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(Yes, that’s a garden gnome.)

And gosh darn it, wouldn’t you know that incentive comes from my darned wedding?  I keep seeing pictures of women in wedding dresses…and my eyes go STRAIGHT to their fat.  Is this fair?  No.  Frankly, I’m probably an awful person for it.  But to be a little fair, these aren’t women I know in real life.  I do NOT look at my friends like that of course, in fact, I always find my friends attractive.  We all do, right?  The more you like somebody the more attractive they seem.

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But I don’t want people to see my fat in my wedding pictures.  I want people to see long limbs and muscles.  Well, long muscular arms, and a lovely back, and perhaps a thin face with fairly prominent cheekbones.  Is that too much to ask?  And then, ideally I would stay that way for years and years…

Not that people would think that I looked fat in my wedding pictures.  But I would.  And why not look my best?

But let’s not let my best be my best ever! Always evolving, always improving, right?

I’m winning Mike’s weight loss comp.  Five pounds down since weigh-in day May 31.  Six to go.  I can do this.  But I’ll want more.  (He was perhaps more surprised than I was…but I have actually been doing pretty well.  I’m just really critical.)

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These are all me.  Different years, different hair, different weights.  I can’t throw away the fat pictures of me.

But I can keep there from being any more fat pictures.  And whether that is because of my wedding or because I know I look a lot better now.  And more importantly, feel a lot better.  Nothing brings out confidence like being in great shape.

So here’s the deal:  I’ll lose some weight for my wedding.  But it won’t be JUST for my wedding.  Is that still hypocritical of me?

Thoughts on personal training

Wow, the tops of my legs were really sore yesterday.  I’m told those are called “quads”.  I’m not a doctor, so I don’t know.  I did spend about 30 minutes during “Covert Affairs” using the foam roller.  That thing is painful!  But supposedly helpful.

Chris often asks what I do in my workouts with Mike.  The sad truth is…I usually don’t remember.  He’ll ask what muscles I am working out, and I’ll answer, you know, legs, or arms, or whatnot.  Even when I know what muscle an exercise is supposed to be working, often I feel it somewhere entirely different.  Usually in my right wrist or left shoulder…oh wait, that’s probably a problem (violin-related I’m sure.)  Oh, and sometimes I don’t remember because we goof off a lot and I am easily distracted.  Nonetheless I generally get an awesome workout!  Somehow.  Or maybe I don’t.  I could be totally wrong.  I’m not trained.

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I guess that’s why I need a personal trainer.  I am completely unable to do weight lifting without being told what to do.  It’s as if my brain shuts off when my muscles start working.  Peter Sagal has the same problem (from Wait, Wait, Don’t Tell Me) and wrote a great article in the July edition of “Runner’s World”.  One could argue that I COULD do a proper workout on my own and I simply don’t have to, therefore I can’t, but I might disagree.  It worries me…what will I do when I no longer have a personal trainer?  Yes, in an ideal world I would ALWAYS have one, but I’m sure there will come a point when I’ll stop.  Or maybe at that point I will feel ready to move on?  Has anyone experienced this?  I’ve been working out with a trainer for about 1 1/2 years.  (Mike is my second trainer.  My first trainer left the gym to become a car salesman, but then came back.  I had already moved on though.  No hard feelings of course—Joe was and still is awesome.)

And no, I’m not rich!  I just think it’s important, because I have never felt better in my entire life.  Yes, I am lucky to be able to afford a trainer.  But I rent in a cheap area, have a fairly small place, wear clothes from Target and Old Navy, and do not have a huge TV.   Fiscal matters are often a matter of choice.  My TV is over ten years old.  Lucky too, because the thieves didn’t want it.

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(that baby doesn’t need a trainer, he probably could train me!)

Okay, I AM rich.  But not in money.  In friendships and love and fat cats.  And I am rich in comparison to most of the world’s population.

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Now you know if you are a millionaire or not.  I wasn’t sure before.  Now I know.  (I am not telling you the answer.)

How is your Friday going?  I am looking forward to my day immensely.  I don’t have any tremendous plans for the weekend, and Sunday I must wake up early and drive to Kansas for Suzuki Institute Teacher Training (can’t wait!)  Should be great 🙂

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If you are coming here from Skinny Runner’s Blog, WELCOME!

You may have read a quick recap of me there:  basically I blog about nothing, running, violin, teaching children, going out to dinner with friends, and wedding planning (fairly new).  I play and teach violin for a living.  I also have an adorably fat cat.

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Yes, she’s judging you.

I wrote a post last night to post this morning about wedding planning because I did want to keep people up to date on what was going on…but it only has one photo…boring.  I had more photos to share, but my camera battery was dead and I was recharging it.

It’s a brand new camera for me, a bright pink Canon PowerShot Elph, and I love it!  It was a birthday present from my dear fiancé Chris, and so far has made one man practically vomit (funny story:  my friend Jen asked him to take a picture of a group of us, he agreed, I handed him my camera, and in a funny, nauseous sounding voice, he said, oh my god it’s a pink camera.  I just smiled.)

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That’s my fiance, Chris.  He thinks he’s bad at taking pictures, so we’ve been practicing.  I mean, after all, I have a WEDDING coming up and he will be on camera all the time!  Our photographer says she has lots of tips and she will really work with him to help out.

We went out the other night to celebrate our friend Kyle’s birthday.

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I’ve been working on my candid shots.  I took that picture and afterwards a few people looked up and wondered where the lightning came from.  I like the picture though, really shows the seriousness of the situation.  Birthdays are serious business.

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Other than the fact that I seemingly have no eyelashes, I like this picture.  I remembered to put my arm away from my body—that’s another tip from the photographer.

Last night I met up with my friend Laura and her in-laws to take a walk up to the Compton Hill Water Tower.  It’s a cool looking water tower that you are able to climb up, but it’s only open on occasion Saturdays and evidently on the evenings of full moons in the summer.  We noticed that was last night, so decided it was an excellent activity for out of town folks.

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Views of the tower at night and at day.

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View of Grand Boulevard from the top of the tower.

There were 198 winding steps up to the top.  Since I am a super hard core exerciser (if you read previous posts you’ll know this 😉 ) it was NO problem for me, but I did start to get a little freaked out by the heights.

Today my legs are really sore.  I don’t know if it’s from that, from my run yesterday, or from all the lunges my trainer made me in our workout yesterday.  (Yes, I have a trainer.  If you’re new you should know that.  I have lost over 40 pounds in the past 1 1/2 years, and I workout with a trainer twice a week.  He’s awesome, and we ran a race together last month.  He beat me.  He also beat almost everybody else.  His name is Mike and you should train with him too.  Then you can look like me.)

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That’s me and Mike (it was an 80’s themed costume race, I don’t always dress like that.)

Anyway, that’s everything so far in a nutshell.  I’m debating if my legs are too sore for a run this morning…

Thanks for stopping by and come again soon!  Every post is different and random, but I try to keep it entertaining.  What do you think?

Also, here are some other recent posts you might like:

If it isn’t posted on the internet, has it really happened?

Summer Retreat Day 5:  Body Image

A Night at the Circus

Wedding planning

I haven’t written about my wedding recently, so I thought I’d give you a little update.  I believe the last time I really talked about was after we set our date.

We’ve made a lot of progress, and I’m enjoying the planning.  Chris has been wonderful (of course) and super helpful, and we’re enjoying planning an event that will showcase our relationship and our love, yet also be fun for our friends and family (hopefully, and please try not to vom after reading that.)

Here’s what we’ve done so far:  We set the date of 1/2/12 at Moulin for the ceremony AND reception.  Our reception will be a sit down dinner, and there will be a cocktail hour in between.  We’ve hired an officiant to marry us, someone we have worked with in the past, a woman that will write a ceremony for us that we will be happy with.  We found awesome invitations online that just need a bit of tweaking to make them more special, and the woman who does them lives locally!  (We are super close to sending out save-the-dates…).  And most recently we hired a photographer who is the mother of one of my students who gave us an excellent deal plus we really love her style. 

What’s next on the agenda?  We are currently working on the music end of it—we want a band for the reception (let’s not go there yet for the ceremony…I can’t…I just can’t…  Also we are working on the registry, hotel accommodations for the guests, and starting to think about flowers, cake, and of course…my dress.  I also have generally figured out hair and makeup for myself and the bridesmaids.  When I get back from Kansas I need to do some dress shopping though, and I have two friends here I plan to bring with me to be brutally honest.

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So that’s pretty much what’s going on with wedding planning.  I don’t want to give anything away, so I don’t want to give too many details!  For instance, I’m super excited about our save the dates, but I don’t want to post anything here yet.  And the save the dates are part of a greater theme for our invitations, and likely for the programs as well.  It all works together, plus I realized that I just love paper.  

Unrelated to wedding planning:  My facebook free week is going pretty decently.  I had to log on the other day to verify addresses, and YES I post my blog there but that doesn’t require logging into facebook.  I am glad I’m doing it.  People doubt my ability to go facebook free, but seriously, it’s the best week ever 😉

Last but not least:  What do you think of this?

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Try not to pee yourself with excitement. I may have.

The more I think about it, the more I love the marathon course…but..

I’m not ready to run a marathon.  But how awesome is this course?  Seriously.  I love it.

Or maybe I’m just still upset by a certain race in April and anything different is simply a grand improvement?  Maybe.  Maybe not.  I’m just not ready to admit either way.

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I can’t find anything better to post on the blog, but follow the link I posted and you can see it better.  Go run people!  The weather is fantastic, and if I can do it, you can do it.  I wasn’t even running a year ago and look at me now…sometimes both feet even lift off the ground!

Can you believe June is already halfway over?  I can’t.  I’ve finally got most of my summer mapped out, including a small trip to Chicago (woo!!  Yay for Avec and Karen!!!!!).  I love summer.

Rock and Roll Course Revealed

This morning I was excited to see that the course for the Rock and Roll Half Marathon was in the “paper” (by that I mean I saw it on twitter and went to the website).

The race is on October 23 here in St Louis.  Here’s the link to the article about the course.

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It’s a nice course, I think, and it’s different that the Go! course from April which is awesome, since I am still pretty scarred from that.  What’s funny is that now I’ve run in much hotter weather, though not as far, but still, I would probably do FINE if the race were held today.  And maybe Jen wouldn’t have almost died.  Grrr.  I love that the course goes really near my house though!

It’ll be my second rock and roll race of the year (the first being P.F. Chang’s Excellent Tempe Phoenix Rock and Roll Adventure…or something like that…) which means I’ll also (upon completion) get another medal for doing two in one year.  I’m VERY fancy like that!

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Anyway, so I’m excited!  I would post it on facebook…but I’m on facebook break.  Honestly it hasn’t been so bad, and in some ways being away from facebook has been a relief.  Yes, I’ve stepped up my twittering, but I think that’s okay.

In other news, I have a blister like thing on the bottom of my foot.  I decided to do a treadmill walking workout last night, just something easy, and ended up hurting my foot so I can’t run today.  I remember it hurt while walking but I dismissed it as my foot callous needing to get built up again (which is probably true) and then decided I would be more hard core if I just pushed through the pain.  Which was probably pretty stupid, but I don’t believe any lasting harm was done.  Honestly I should have taken yesterday as a rest day, but I felt guilty since I had done that on Saturday as well, and plus seem to have gained a pound this week…and I just wasn’t thinking terribly clearly.  Besides, it was just walking.  Stupid blisters.

thoughts about violin, teaching, running, life.